What if?
14 years ago
First of all, I would like to say that I'm not active and pretty much dead at the moment due to many things. I really don't wanna go drama around, cause it's my problem but I think I need help, not everybody who watched me. I would love to hear different opinion or fact from many people and try to learn something from it. I will be very appreciated your answers. Just what you think and what will you do to each question.
Okay, to whoever read this journal. I'm kinda confused in my life right now I really can't forget everything in the past. It's like a golden age in my life being on several websites with all the good people I met, everything was so colorful back there but not what it is in the present. The problem is I can't seems to see the way out, but I'm sure most people don't just like when you can't notice any mistake in your art piece at first sight but others can. I would love to hear from any of you here what do you think and what will you do if you face these particular situations. Most of these might be extremely ridiculous and nonsense but I would love to know anyway for it might come in handy just in case.
Here's the question:
1. If your very good friend and one of the best you met here is gone for no reason and don't wanna talk to you.
2. If you can't get rid of any memories of your past either good or bad.
3. If you can't decided which direction to go between what you love and what really going to help you in your future.
4. If you do have time but at the same time you really think you don't cause you need your own free time.
5. If you feel like nobody really want to be friends with you weather you do have someone or not.
6. If you really want to shout out your pain but decide not to for you don't want to be such a whiner, which make you really stressed.
7. If you are going to be heart broken for being yourself too much are you going to stay the same way you always be anyway even though you know the consequence? (Movie ref)
8. If you get insulted for something you really scared of and you know you can't overcome it.
9. If you're very faithful to everyone you love and can't speak lie.
10. Last, If you happen to read this journal what do you think about me right now? (Don't just hate me please, give me some reason)
For everybody who answer, Thank you very much for taking your time for me. :) I'll never forget your kindness.
This has been a very boring journal which you all might have seen it else where for a million time but thank you for reading through this.
Okay, to whoever read this journal. I'm kinda confused in my life right now I really can't forget everything in the past. It's like a golden age in my life being on several websites with all the good people I met, everything was so colorful back there but not what it is in the present. The problem is I can't seems to see the way out, but I'm sure most people don't just like when you can't notice any mistake in your art piece at first sight but others can. I would love to hear from any of you here what do you think and what will you do if you face these particular situations. Most of these might be extremely ridiculous and nonsense but I would love to know anyway for it might come in handy just in case.
Here's the question:
1. If your very good friend and one of the best you met here is gone for no reason and don't wanna talk to you.
2. If you can't get rid of any memories of your past either good or bad.
3. If you can't decided which direction to go between what you love and what really going to help you in your future.
4. If you do have time but at the same time you really think you don't cause you need your own free time.
5. If you feel like nobody really want to be friends with you weather you do have someone or not.
6. If you really want to shout out your pain but decide not to for you don't want to be such a whiner, which make you really stressed.
7. If you are going to be heart broken for being yourself too much are you going to stay the same way you always be anyway even though you know the consequence? (Movie ref)
8. If you get insulted for something you really scared of and you know you can't overcome it.
9. If you're very faithful to everyone you love and can't speak lie.
10. Last, If you happen to read this journal what do you think about me right now? (Don't just hate me please, give me some reason)
For everybody who answer, Thank you very much for taking your time for me. :) I'll never forget your kindness.
This has been a very boring journal which you all might have seen it else where for a million time but thank you for reading through this.
2) I do what i always do which is continue on, memories are just kinda there, there is no reason to regret them and such for they are in the past.
3) If this is about jobs and such, I have always been told and followed the idea of you should do what you at the very least don't mind doing. If the other road is something you hate then don't take it.
4)Live that one every day it can be maddening, don't really have any helpful thoughts for that besides try not to stress over it. For stressing over it creates less time.
5) That sorta depression I feel allot but you just gotta remind yourself of the friends you do have. :)
6)I generally try not to piss and complain for that very reason, my suggestion is to find some other sort of stress relief.
7)Yes I will always be me because in the end the people who care don't matter and the people who matter don't care.
8)Just carry on some people just don't understand how hard it is to come over some fears.
9) I don't really know whatcha mean with this one. n.n;
10) I think you're a nice person who is simply asking some questions to get a scope on things. :)
Hope I helped a little. n.n
I pretty much like your answer, especially the 3th and the 7th one.Thank you very much, and don't you worry about number 9 I can't answer that myself either.
2) You can't do anything about memories, they'll always be there, the good and bad. Cherish the good ones, and don't regret the bad ones, just learn from them.
3) You have to find the balance between being able to survive and enjoying what you do, but if you are able to, always do what you love.
4) I struggle with this one. Don't stress about your free time, because you'll lose time doing this. Just figure out what things are the most important to you, and worry about them one at a time.
5) Just remember the friends or the good things you do have in life. Anyone can feel deserted at times, but as long as you're a nice, open, and caring person, you will always have people who care about you as well.
6) Everybody needs to let out their pain, don't keep it inside. There are lots of ways to get it out; talking to others, through art, or for me, just taking a long walk or drive is often all I need.
7) A quote from Dr. Seuss "Be who you are because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind." Never try to be someone you're not, because you'll always end up less happy than you could be.
8) Ignore those insults, some people don't take others seriously when they should.
9) I feel that I am this way and if you are too, then no matter how people treat you, you have to be proud of yourself for being a truly good person, because good people are sadly becoming more and more rare in today's world
10) I've never met you in real life, so it's impossible to say for certain, but my impressions of you is that you are a kind, caring, and wonderful person. You have always been really generous and thoughtful of others, and it sounds like right now, you are just struggling with a few small insecurities of your own, but you have to remember to be proud of who you are. Only you can live your life, and only you can live it once, so you should do whatever you need to to make it enjoyable. A teacher once told me two very important things, which are "Don't worry about the small things in life." and "It's all small things."
I hope my answers helped some Slok :)
All of them are really make sense.Can't thank you enough. Talk about you helping me, how are you at the moment?
I'm currently doing a whole lot of writing because I'm participating in NaNoWrimo, or National Novel Writing month, which is a challenge to write 50,000 words just during the month of November.
2. I move on with my life, new memories to make.
3. I'd try my best to compensate between both. I had a decision like this earlier this year, whether I wanted to pursue science or art. I decided art should always be my hobby, because if I made a career out of it, I would become burnt out easily.
4. I take life a little lighter than most, time is a made up expenditure. I make time for everything, even if it's only 30 minutes doing what I love per day versus 3 hours for something I should be doing.
5. I always feel like this, 'cause I feel like I annoy everyone who talks to me with my informative rambling. Honestly, I just move on and consider myself blessed with the people who stay by my side, regardless of howo small a group that is.
6. I write it down. Or draw my feelings out. If anybody asks about it, I wouldn't respond. Overtime, everything does heal, and although we may not forget the severity of the pain, because some lingers so strong, we are able to replace that pain with something better.
7. Yes, unless it's a very dramatic flaw in my personality that people point out; like being brutally honest or harsh (which was a problem of mine in the past. I've changed this, and it doesn't bother me a bit.) Usually, true friends and lovers will stick by you no matter what your flaws. Doesn't mean that they find you perfect, though. Perfection is boring.
8. I usually laugh it off. "Yeah, I know it's kind of stupid." Everyone made fun of me when I was afraid of birds, and to be honest, later on in life, I found it was a funny trait to have. Birds are cute. Not evil.
9. If someone I love really wants to know the truth, I'll tell them from the beginning that nothing I say is meant to hurt them, and I only want to help. Telling someone they're not that great at singing even though they love doing it, is a hard thing to do. My fix: I told them I can teach them how to sing. A sublte way of saying, "you suck, learn more"
10. I feel like you're going through some emotional turmoil and I wish I was a better friend so I could help you. I can't even remember how long we've watched each other, but it hurts my heart to feel that you could be hurting. I hope it's not true, though.
Btw, it's going to be selfish to talk about myself, so, how are you doing?
I'm doing okay, I feel like I'm stuck in a rut because college doesn't start until spring, and I still can't find a new job. My health is decreasing with the cooler weather, and I'm at a loss what to do. I hate staying inside all day, but it's been so cold outside. ;-;