I just wish I could understand it... I honestly hate no one, no matter what they might say, or do to me. Yet, every time I turn around, I have someone who's telling me they hate me, and then don't believe me when I say I don't feel the same. My mate and I actually had it out the other day, a huge fight, but the end result couldn't be better... I understand our relationship and feel like things will be all right from now on. Yeah, im still afraid, but its not the paralyzing fear it once was, and im working though it because I love him, and want to spend my life with him... I've gotten over my jealousy, and I no longer care that he has pets, even rl ones. I'm happy to be his only mate, his future wife(hopefully :3), and the mother of his children. But still I'm hated, and I just cant understand why...

I dunno... Random journal is random...not like the person who hates me would even read this or anything...just kind of.. Sad I guess.. And I mean im sad, not the situation is sad....