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decisions, pain and hope
14 years ago
yeah, im going though allot >.>
i am dealing with allot of pain from the past, self acceptation, and that sort of stuff
in short: i dont know who i am....
i have desided to put my sona aside of me, so my sona is just a suit and art, no more no less, as it is supposed to.
but because of all the pain in the past, my childhood and youth, i used my fursona to hide myself of all those pains.
simply because i am afraid, im scared of all the pain, because it is huge.
so i have build up this shield, called QuiranPup, i hide behind his innocense, his playfull behaviour, just to cover up these flaws.
i have desided i will take these pains from the past and deal with it before it drives me nuts.
i need to accept myself.
i need to accept who i am, if i dont know who i am, how can i make a sona that resembles me.
not what i want to be.
so i am not a furry, or w/e you wanna call it, im just a furry fan.
but hope is there to, a fur is going to help me find a job in orlando, i refrain from saying his name, only that i am thankfull that he is willing to help me out with getting a seasonal job.
i just pray that i would get to accept myself for who i am, and not for what i wanna be.
i see what happens... only time can tell
i am dealing with allot of pain from the past, self acceptation, and that sort of stuff
in short: i dont know who i am....
i have desided to put my sona aside of me, so my sona is just a suit and art, no more no less, as it is supposed to.
but because of all the pain in the past, my childhood and youth, i used my fursona to hide myself of all those pains.
simply because i am afraid, im scared of all the pain, because it is huge.
so i have build up this shield, called QuiranPup, i hide behind his innocense, his playfull behaviour, just to cover up these flaws.
i have desided i will take these pains from the past and deal with it before it drives me nuts.
i need to accept myself.
i need to accept who i am, if i dont know who i am, how can i make a sona that resembles me.
not what i want to be.
so i am not a furry, or w/e you wanna call it, im just a furry fan.
but hope is there to, a fur is going to help me find a job in orlando, i refrain from saying his name, only that i am thankfull that he is willing to help me out with getting a seasonal job.
i just pray that i would get to accept myself for who i am, and not for what i wanna be.
i see what happens... only time can tell
Hang in there my friend.
I know we dont really chat much, but as a fellow animal worker i would like to help you mate.
If you need to talk about anything, let me know ok?
My contact details are on my page.
Takecare mate.
And you can always talk to me whenever you need to :3
I've typed several pages of self-reflections in the last half-hour, but I shan't bother you with it. I'll just say have some (psychological) problems of my own, so I know at least in part how you feel.