well i have been under me stress as of late cant finish my suit projects every time i seem to get a head way on them i need the money for somthing elce i have a the love of my life back and am corenty trying to secure the prchas of a home if all goes well i will be moving mid jan to early feb closer to my love and some family and a verry close friend as well as leaving some family behinde its a three beroom i am trying to get my stress as a friend told me as of late has made me act like im back on drugs and that made me sob last night but the relisation of the fact that i had nearly become a stalker to my love and not a loveing partner has made me want to do better wat few true friends i have left have all but kicked my as telling me that i need to change i have a bad headache for a few days but am trying to relax and not be so damnd stupid thank you to all of my friends and the love of my life for suporting the ass that i was becoming and trying to help me see that i need to do beter for not just me but for them as well so that they do not need to worry as much