Well I am back from MFF, if you couldn't already infer that x3.
Either read the entire thing, or skip to "the ups" if you don't want to read sappy depressing shit.

----THE DOWNS----

I am all sorts of unhappy, and most of it is not P.C.D. Generally I feel like crap.

If it isn't the mostly shoddy very quickly done work on my fursuit, that more or less made it unwearable without several well placed safety pins. The fact that I managed to take two of my best friends  kiba and  eradragon and alienate them to the point where they want nothing to do with me. Completely of my own doing. I couldn't find a group to do much of -anything- with without ending up feeling ditched 15 mins later, whether it was intentional or not. I did more or less everything alone, couldn't find anyone that wanted to really see me.

This con was suck and fail, entirely for me. It did have some ups and I will get to that. However, I just wasn't happy. Thursday was probably a mistake for me to even arrive there that day. Woulda been less stressful and probably better for everyone had I just got there sometime Friday.

By Friday afternoon I wanted to just go home and leave altogether and to be completely honest, I may have benefited from that, but I tried to stick it out and have some fun. I feel like crap for doing what I did, and all the things I said.

To my roomates, I am sorry you had to sit there and hear me rant, and the fact that you didn't kick me out, or attempt to tell me to simply fuck off shows how good of people you both are. To our pseudo-third roomate, assuming you read this. Thank you for helping me as much as you did, and you did make my con better.

To  shale I'm glad I got to see you at least once during the con, It was nice to see you surrounded by fun happy people that care about you and you having a good time at your last MFF. I wish you luck on your new life in calil. I hope you never forget the good times we had together. I sometimes wish I could have tried harder to do things differently.


to the few other people I saw, and hugged and snuggled. Thank you for being my friend and trying atleast harder than some others to make me feel better.


----THE GOOD----


I did wear my new fursuit some, it was difficult at first to swallow the reality of how it turned out. I was not pleased with how rushed among other things it felt. It really did feel slapped togeather much more than (IMHO) it should have. But it did get used and I did get some attention. I feel now that i have used a "boob-suit" I can honestly say I'm better off without em lol.

Did the fursuit parade, got some pics and some comments. Will be looking for pics around and will post them or link them in my journal whatever I can do.

I did buy some assorted goodies and trinkets, and toys. I am happy with the purchases I made, and only bought one bit of art, that will be done and posted sometime in the future. I did get to see  semjay and  mr-taren we chatted a bit, it was nice to see them both. I did get to see some other faces, and got to meet some new people, but not many and I don't think I left much of an impact on most of them :<

Anywho, I'll add/change things if I feel it right this is my journal for now. I'm not leaving the fandom but I am just not happy :< Worst con to date so far.

-Nara ish gone now.