i'm sorry to everyone who listens to me bitching day in and day out about everything. i just can't see any positive with all this negative in my life right now. >> the only people who listen to me, other than people on here, are my mates, and i don't want to worry them with all my emotional stress... .__. they have enough to worry about already. my relationships are crumbling, which are the only things keeping me from a bullet through the skull, my parents are more bitchy than ever now that the holiday seasons are here and i just feel downright unloved... :/ i've never felt this low. really, i haven't. i don't see many options for my future right now. >> i need to get out of this goddamn town, but have nowhere to go/can't afford it. my job sucks, but i can't find any other ones cuz i live out in the middle of nowhere. im slowly dying cuz my genetics suck ass and i go to sleep bawling my eyes out cuz i can't escape. i can't even sleep anymore because the good dreams have went away and been replaced by nothing but spiraling darkness and nightmares. .__. whatever. tl;dr, amiright? just the insane rantings of a rapidly declining sanity. gonna go to bed and let the madness slowly kill my brain.