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The Status of Myself as an Author
18 years ago
So I'm gonna post two stories after I make this journal entry. I've been meaning to post them for a while, but I just never got the proper gumption to do it. One is a birthday story for 
verace It's rather late to be posting, but it kinda got hung up in editing & approval because of the holidays and school and everything.
The other... well... it's the source of those last two journals I made before going quiet. I initially wrote most of the tradee's idea in June of last year, then waited the return of the trade to finish it. And waited... and waited... until one day the tradee asked me to write something else. I told him I'd want to get their half of our trade before I wrote anything else, but they had forgotten that I had written up their idea.
It really shook me to my foundations as a writer. I've been burned before, but that felt like being shot in to the sun. I told myself I was going to give up writing. The stories were going to be posted as "The Last Thing I Ever Wrote" and "Why I Stopped Writing". I'm still not entirely at peace, but I'm a step or two past that point.
The second story has been edited to remove all traces of the tradee's characters, and I will ignore any prods for information as to their identity. I've made my peace with the situation and with trades in general, which is to say I won't be doing any in a circumstance I can envision.
It was actually reading over the end of the story that helped get me past the "never going to write again" mood I was in. Though I sincerely doubt a retribution such as that between myself and the tradee will ever come to fruition, reading it stirred something in me. Hopefully I'll someday again have the strength to write something that stirs someone else.
verace It's rather late to be posting, but it kinda got hung up in editing & approval because of the holidays and school and everything.The other... well... it's the source of those last two journals I made before going quiet. I initially wrote most of the tradee's idea in June of last year, then waited the return of the trade to finish it. And waited... and waited... until one day the tradee asked me to write something else. I told him I'd want to get their half of our trade before I wrote anything else, but they had forgotten that I had written up their idea.
It really shook me to my foundations as a writer. I've been burned before, but that felt like being shot in to the sun. I told myself I was going to give up writing. The stories were going to be posted as "The Last Thing I Ever Wrote" and "Why I Stopped Writing". I'm still not entirely at peace, but I'm a step or two past that point.
The second story has been edited to remove all traces of the tradee's characters, and I will ignore any prods for information as to their identity. I've made my peace with the situation and with trades in general, which is to say I won't be doing any in a circumstance I can envision.
It was actually reading over the end of the story that helped get me past the "never going to write again" mood I was in. Though I sincerely doubt a retribution such as that between myself and the tradee will ever come to fruition, reading it stirred something in me. Hopefully I'll someday again have the strength to write something that stirs someone else.
i do know what its like to not have your art apprecieated by others. i think evrey aurthor on here knows what thats like.
i i also know that i love your story's and i think that if you stopped writing because if this one persons stupidity it would be a horrible waste of your talant and do way more to hurt you in the long end than writing will.