have just realized that i have an alcohol problem other than tha fact that i dont have any rite now.

Reasons why i think i mite have a problem:
1.) about a week ago i spent tha night with my aunt and her 2 young kids because her husband is in another country and shes scared ta be alone. i fell asleep strongly cravin alcohol and woke up tha next mornin and could barely taste alcohol in my mouth. i just assumed that i tasted it because of tha cravin i still had for it and didnt think anything else about it. well at least for 2 more days... my cousin noticed that my uncle had a missin beer or 2 and NOBODY had a clue to where it went. when i heard that i immediately thought back to that mornin wakin up with tha tastes in my mouth. i honestly think im a sleep drinker... *sigh and face palm*

2.) i drink alcohol in a place that could get my ass jail time for even havin it on tha premises, let alone havin any in my system... at least one 20oz bottle mixed half and half with some kind of dark colored soda. (usually dr. pepper)

3.) and i bought a dr. pepper from walmart tonight and ta me it tasted like alcohol.

Zaylen S. Smith
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