...was not fun... nope... not one bit. What's worse is that my boyfriend had to bear witness to it. He's never seen me breakdown and all but fall apart like that before... and in the car no less. Thankfully we were parked because we were getting gas. -_-;

I needed a serious mental and emotional break this past Sunday. My original plans fell through and I had no backup plans because that was all I had planned to do that day was plan A. I knew I was heading for a meltdown if I didn't get the break.

I didn't get it.

I'm just now able to post this journal and was just finally late today able to text two people back, but it's all I can manage right now. I'm still not fully re-coop'd from my meltdown... the monotony of work has helped a little if just because it's a familiar day to day routine. -_-;

Also an update, the house I had been looking at getting, about three hours after my meltdown I called my realtor and told him I didn't want it anymore. Back to searching, again.

Thankfully the new lender I'm working with, after only two days, already has me pre-approved. It took my last lender 3 months for whatever fucked up reason and the last lender was just for a conventional loan, the one I'm with now is for a 203k loan which is a type of FHA loan that gives you fix it up funds since in the price range I can actually afford, anything I look at is going to be in need of some repairs.

Since 203k is a type of FHA loan, which has a lot of red tape, especially when compared to a conventional loan, let me ask this: Why the HELL did it take my other lender 3 MONTHS to get me pre-approved and this guy took 2 DAYS?!

Once again I re-iterate: JACKASS!

Side note: Hoping for that emotional and mental break this weekend... even though Friday is going to be a real rough day for me...

Rest forever in the arms of God
Bea Viner
Loving Mother, Doting Grandmother
September 1928
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December 16, 2005
You are still very much loved and missed terribly.
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