Im getting better, there is a posative start.. ive been on anti-depressents for about a year or less, i do feel better , my mood has lifted an im not crying as much as i used to do. Through i do hate taking all theese meds, they are bitter nasty pills, full of yuck.. i am bad i dont take the correct amount im supposed to.. i take less then what the doctor wants me to... i feel totally tierd an zoned out on my current dosage, i dont want to get anymore tranquilized.
Im not working in a resturant anymore, i am now a cleaner in a nursing home, an it is a much better job, less stressful an nice an peacful, which is a blessing for me.You have to have a strong stomach, you deal with quite abit of smelly yucky things, the elderly in the nurseing home are poorly in heath or state of mind, so they need help with hygiene - fortunatly thats not my job, i just scuttle around.. washing dishes, vacuming, emptying bins, dusting.

I was pondering today, why i find it so tricky to talk to other furrys, i have more human freinds then furry freinds.. Maybe because of experinces i have had in the past with furs, i worry about coming across wrong, or giving them the wrong idea..
when im with human freinds an i give them hugs, they know im doing it out of freindship an its not a invatation to jump in my pants.. With some furs ive met through.. they abit TO touchy feely .. maybe im acting wrong an it seems im leading them on? do males have this trouble? or is it just cos im female..

anyway on an upward..
alittle good news, im a mentor in second life now, i can kick newbies into shape :p
i dont actully get greif for being a furry from the new folks, i quite a few compliments on my apperance .. i get more greif from furs then i do humans *shrugs*

I am a skunk in second life at the moment, i am.. getting some negativity for being a skunk .. its not bad stuff . people trying to make fun of me cos of the smell thing.. i just give them a good spray >:P
anyway.. sleep now.. my bed awaits !