I find myself once again contemplating my existence and generally my life. No job or desire to get one. No ambition to do anything other than what I'm doing now. I feel like I'm trapped in a cage with no bars. Freedom and opportunity within my grasp but I am afraid to seize them. I'm afraid of failure, afraid of change, afraid that my entire existence is without meaning or purpose. I'm afraid of getting hurt. Wether its physical or emotional. But more than anything else. I'm afraid of being alone. No one to help me make the right decisions, no one to remind me of my duties, no one to hold when I need the strength to continue.

I fear loneliness.
But I also fear change.

What am I to do?

Sincerely, MZ