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I think it's time.
13 years ago
Yep. I think I'm ready to ease back in to the furry world.
I dunno, the whole last year I just wasn't feeling the furry vibe. I still felt exactly the same about myself, but the fandom as a whole, I just didn't feel like it was where I felt like being. Everything's gotten pretty different since I first came in, too. Kind of expected, since that was... fuck, about 12 years ago.
IRL, this is. I used to know pretty much everyone, and I was usually the youngest around. Art meets were fun, dinner meets were fun, movie nights at people's houses felt safe. Now, I'm getting older, and I'm very aware that I hardly know anyone. The art meets are 80% filled with people sitting around a food court gossiping, dinner meets go to places I can't get to or can't afford (or simply have no interest in, that too), and I don't know if anyone still does movie nights. If they did, I don't know if I'd feel comfortable there. The older furs are more busy than ever, and I simply can't seem to relate to the younger, new furs very much, though this is more of a "general teenage humanity" thing than a fur thing with me.
Weirdly perhaps, but I feel more comfortable and accepted in the BDSM communities than the furry groups around here; that's not to say they're hostile at all (the furries), they're pretty friendly and everything. But the furry group here seems to have gone to seed a bit, falling into isolated cliques more often than not. It's friendly, but not welcoming, if you understand what I mean.
I didn't feel like I'd grown out of the furry fandom, because I probably never will. But... Maybe the fandom has outgrown me.
I'm not sure how much I'll be getting back into things. Meet-ups are pretty tough for me, both personally and practically. Between anxiety, social failure and old-fashioned public transport fuckery, it's not surprising that I'm a rare sight at meets lately. But I'll see what happens, maybe I'll successfully un-hermit this time.
I'll just draw, and write, and see where I end up by December.
I dunno, the whole last year I just wasn't feeling the furry vibe. I still felt exactly the same about myself, but the fandom as a whole, I just didn't feel like it was where I felt like being. Everything's gotten pretty different since I first came in, too. Kind of expected, since that was... fuck, about 12 years ago.
IRL, this is. I used to know pretty much everyone, and I was usually the youngest around. Art meets were fun, dinner meets were fun, movie nights at people's houses felt safe. Now, I'm getting older, and I'm very aware that I hardly know anyone. The art meets are 80% filled with people sitting around a food court gossiping, dinner meets go to places I can't get to or can't afford (or simply have no interest in, that too), and I don't know if anyone still does movie nights. If they did, I don't know if I'd feel comfortable there. The older furs are more busy than ever, and I simply can't seem to relate to the younger, new furs very much, though this is more of a "general teenage humanity" thing than a fur thing with me.
Weirdly perhaps, but I feel more comfortable and accepted in the BDSM communities than the furry groups around here; that's not to say they're hostile at all (the furries), they're pretty friendly and everything. But the furry group here seems to have gone to seed a bit, falling into isolated cliques more often than not. It's friendly, but not welcoming, if you understand what I mean.
I didn't feel like I'd grown out of the furry fandom, because I probably never will. But... Maybe the fandom has outgrown me.
I'm not sure how much I'll be getting back into things. Meet-ups are pretty tough for me, both personally and practically. Between anxiety, social failure and old-fashioned public transport fuckery, it's not surprising that I'm a rare sight at meets lately. But I'll see what happens, maybe I'll successfully un-hermit this time.
I'll just draw, and write, and see where I end up by December.
tinderbones
Aww, I missed ya too. Not to worry, more-or-less back now, and drawing my ass off, so I'll be around a lot more from now on. I hope you're feeling alright *hugs*
Nice to meet you too! And good luck yourself, hope you're doing well
A lot of it has to do with the whole fetishist thing...this is a very nonsexual interest of mine. I don't really draw porn, and the porn that I do fave is typically artfully rendered rather than a passing scribble with disregard to natural anatomy.
Ahem...I digress. I'm a hanger-on to the fandom's fringes, occasionally doodling and commissioning here and there. But the last convention I went to was almost 3 years ago, and all of my friends since then have drifted off for the most part.
I really feel you here.
On the same token, you don't have to be ENTRENCHED in the fandom to be a part of it. Form your own niche and the rest will follow.