I daresay that after creating this account I have drawn more in the past couple months than I have in years. I have never been so motivated to finish a paper as I have been to sketch, ink and color (despite not being well-practiced in it– most of my art background was in ceramics and oil painting (both during high school), and one metal-smithing mother who routinely gave me cabochons for Christmas in the hopes that I would follow her into jewelry design at the young age of 9).

Sometimes I despair a little at the magnificent things that people are doing with tablets (despite having rounded up something like two hundred colored pencils that were lying around the house) but I have decided lacking a tablet is probably not as detrimental as lacking a decent foundation in anatomy, something I am hoping to remedy with references and frequent trips to the library for things like encyclopedias. Sometimes, however, there arise moments when i need to remind myself that this is supposed to be fun, and if I want to draw an idea and not have arms and legs in proper proportion, I can damn well do that. Okay, honestly, I never worried about these things before I got it into my head that I could some day make some money from doing it well. In a similar vein to how I will cook for myself and not care if it's particularly edible, but follow recipes to a paranoid T if I think someone else will be consuming the finished product, I (or my nit-picky Type 5 personality) have decided I cannot/will not do any sort of commissions (except for my partner) until I have reached perfection– *ahem*, until I have attained the ability to make arms and legs in the right proportion and draw something recognizable as the same entity from different angle. Has anyone ever been bothered by the fact that "cannot" is an acceptable word but "willnot" is not? Because I currently am. Now I must ponder this... *wanders off*