So my roommate decided 100% that I have to leave. I have till June. She came back from one of her BDSM conventions and I was giving her time to deal with her 'Con Drop', but instead she comes at me in the computer room telling me that it's over and I have to leave, and that I have to sleep in the computer room from now on. My bed upstairs has been forfeit, apparently.

So now I have between now and June to find somewhere else to live with no money, few friends and no assurances on anything.

I'm regretting having been in a relationship with her. Through all these years we've had our ups and downs, but she's single-handedly caused the most stress on me of any woman I've been around, even to the point that I've ended up with Panic/Anxiety attacks that can be anywhere from uncomfortable to debilitating. I can't even handle most stresses I used to be able to shrug off now.

This sucks. I've basically sunk my own boat being here and now I'm not only without a paddle, I'm without a canoe.

Now all I can do is continue seeing doctors and pray that I can get disability before she kicks me out onto the street.

This hurts. It really, really hurts, and I don't know what to do.