i haven't been honest with you. my parents aren't assholes like i've led you all to believe. they're not perfect, but i wouldn't change my life for anything right now.  hippiemouse, I'm espescially sorry to you. what happened with  addik, you don't deserve another liar in your life in any way. i understand if none of you ever wishes to speak to me again, you all have every right, but, i hope you can all find it in your hearts to forgive me.