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The state of the pony..
13 years ago
..is not good.
I've been trying for a long while to get my thoughts down on paper/ in type, but my mind has been exceedingly random, increasingly dark/ lucid, and my attention span decreasing exponentially lately. Long story short, for likely the last year, possibly longer, I've been battling some demons..chronically depressed/ angry all the time; What scares me the most (which is NOT an easy thing to do) is the worry I may have an inherited bipolar disorder, courtesy of my good old mother..It's a legitimiately frightening prospect, knowing how she gets; And I do NOT want to become anything like her if I can so help it. Fortunately for me, Kria has been observant enough to not take my moodiness personally, and finally realize something was indeed amiss; she has also seconded my suspicions that more professional help may be required to nip things in the bud, should I show signs of getting worse.
I've been wanting for a long time now to say a HUGE thank you to all my friends here; from the DMFA/ CMF forums, EFM, and Furcadia alike. You've all lent me an ear and a hug or two when I so desperately needed them (despite your own stresses), honored and amazed me with heartfelt gifts of both kind words and spectacular artistic creations. When I come to local meets and cons, you've helped me forget about the real world for a while, and remind me why I so love this fandom: I can always be myself, never need feel self concious to flaunt my tail in public, my arts are always enjoyed/ appreciated (no matter how bad they are), and age..is just a number. There are some of you who have gone well above and beyond to help me through my rough spots these last few months; My only hope is that I can return the favor in kind someday, should the need arise.
D'ymkarra
I've been trying for a long while to get my thoughts down on paper/ in type, but my mind has been exceedingly random, increasingly dark/ lucid, and my attention span decreasing exponentially lately. Long story short, for likely the last year, possibly longer, I've been battling some demons..chronically depressed/ angry all the time; What scares me the most (which is NOT an easy thing to do) is the worry I may have an inherited bipolar disorder, courtesy of my good old mother..It's a legitimiately frightening prospect, knowing how she gets; And I do NOT want to become anything like her if I can so help it. Fortunately for me, Kria has been observant enough to not take my moodiness personally, and finally realize something was indeed amiss; she has also seconded my suspicions that more professional help may be required to nip things in the bud, should I show signs of getting worse.
I've been wanting for a long time now to say a HUGE thank you to all my friends here; from the DMFA/ CMF forums, EFM, and Furcadia alike. You've all lent me an ear and a hug or two when I so desperately needed them (despite your own stresses), honored and amazed me with heartfelt gifts of both kind words and spectacular artistic creations. When I come to local meets and cons, you've helped me forget about the real world for a while, and remind me why I so love this fandom: I can always be myself, never need feel self concious to flaunt my tail in public, my arts are always enjoyed/ appreciated (no matter how bad they are), and age..is just a number. There are some of you who have gone well above and beyond to help me through my rough spots these last few months; My only hope is that I can return the favor in kind someday, should the need arise.
D'ymkarra
ALSO, depression (which is usually more severe than you think it is when you have it) can cause major mood swings and anger. I would say this is very likely the cause of your problems. I also want to say that bi-polar disorder (like so many other disorders) is most likely to surface in your teens/early twenties, but I could be wrong on that account.
In any case, you've got my support. *hugs* I hope you feel better soon.