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To be perfectly honest....
14 years ago
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~It's not a game, I'm not a robot AI challenging you,
I'm not a phantom,
I'm in your face, and
I'm here to see it through
Right before your eyes,
Watch us multiply,
Come to claim our rights - it's time
As our power grows,
Tryin' to stop us shows,
Might as well go try'n stop time
I'm not a phantom,
I'm in your face, and
I'm here to see it through
Right before your eyes,
Watch us multiply,
Come to claim our rights - it's time
As our power grows,
Tryin' to stop us shows,
Might as well go try'n stop time
I’m just so tired of this life. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m not depressed or anything. I just hate it hear and feel like venting about it a lil. I mean good news to anyone who cares, I am moving forward. I’m doing school, I’m in now current danger of losing the roof over my head, and dad and I are getting along pretty good. But even as I actually move forward, and as good as it feels… I’m still troubled.
In the end of the day, I’m lonely, ergo, I spend way too much time alone. Why? I have only one friend around here, and he actually has a life sooo… I’m not really tight with the few local furs, though I wish I was more so. I don’t own a car, and even if I did there’s hardly anywhere to go. And stay in the room… And I feel like it’s choking me.
Which is why at least it’s good I have all of you. Because, I just don’t know what I would do….. My life would be just… empty, devoid without you people in it. Which is why I kinda have an odd question to all of you. Since I can’t move any time soon, I wonder, just as a psychological question… what should I do to remind myself of all of you on a deeper level?
As far as I see it, since I can’t move, and there’s not a giant amount of point, trying harder to socialize in these backwoods, I feel to ward of all this negativity is to remind myself of you all. That I have people I love and that love me in return. Of course I can’t expect you all to just remind me all the time… That’s crazed… But really, that’s gotta be some way to remember I’m not really alone, when I stare up at the ceiling of this tiny room that acts like some kinda cell…
I do hope this didn’t sound too emo, but I really. REALLY felt like it had to be said, if for no one’s benefit other then my own. Make of it what you will. And again, I love you all.
In the end of the day, I’m lonely, ergo, I spend way too much time alone. Why? I have only one friend around here, and he actually has a life sooo… I’m not really tight with the few local furs, though I wish I was more so. I don’t own a car, and even if I did there’s hardly anywhere to go. And stay in the room… And I feel like it’s choking me.
Which is why at least it’s good I have all of you. Because, I just don’t know what I would do….. My life would be just… empty, devoid without you people in it. Which is why I kinda have an odd question to all of you. Since I can’t move any time soon, I wonder, just as a psychological question… what should I do to remind myself of all of you on a deeper level?
As far as I see it, since I can’t move, and there’s not a giant amount of point, trying harder to socialize in these backwoods, I feel to ward of all this negativity is to remind myself of you all. That I have people I love and that love me in return. Of course I can’t expect you all to just remind me all the time… That’s crazed… But really, that’s gotta be some way to remember I’m not really alone, when I stare up at the ceiling of this tiny room that acts like some kinda cell…
I do hope this didn’t sound too emo, but I really. REALLY felt like it had to be said, if for no one’s benefit other then my own. Make of it what you will. And again, I love you all.
And that sound like it sucks. I'm lucky I had enough free time to type this journal, school has me so busy.
But yeah, music music music all day everyday.
and thanks, it can be rough... But it could always be worse