Oh man, I feel so spooty. I can't draw for crap lately it's pissing me off. I really haven't been able to do much aside from doodles since I got off my meds. I feel terrible since I have commissions that need to get done, but every time I try and sit down to do them, I just... can't. I sit there and stare at the paper and can't get anything out. It's really frustrating. Either my mind has started to wander away from drawing by the time I get my paper/pencil/STUFF out and ready and it was all for naught, or my head gets flooded with...things and I can't focus on one idea at a time in order to draw it cohesively. The only things I've been managing are little character heads every where. Like, I can only focus long enough to draw the head before my mind becomes unfocused again. I have scraps of paper lying around with heads on them now, mostly Knives heads. It's kind of freaky. I really want to get back on my meds and get back to being a normal person because, well, my mental state has become too intense to deal with while I'm off them. It's deteriorating with time, very steadily. Every time I get off my meds, my episodes are worse and worse. It sucks and it's getting to the point where i can't deal...