i had a really bad night last night, like a ten beer night. i feel horrible, and guilty. it is like in the last year i have been trying to deal with my problems by partying with friends. well I'm done with that shit, no more drinking, drugs anything. I'm going clean, i want to be above the influence. I have made some mistakes in my life and i have learned a hard lesson from them. i would really like to get some input on this one...