Well for one. dying wont get you anywhere. If you want to have fun and live your life then pick yourself up and live it. the only person making you depressed is yourself. So stop moping around and just get up. See the light. Live life to the fullest. Set goals and see treasures of the world. Keeping to yourself and moping around all the time will get you no where. Youre an amazing person Mark, and a great friend. Stop selling yourself short and just live your life to the fullest.

It'll get me out of this world that I don't belong in. At least, not as a human. The only thing making me depressed is that, no matter how hard I try, I can't get away from all the memories. I dream about her, Emmie. I dream about her yet, I don't remember her voice and I don't remember what it feels like to have her in my arms. Everything around me is falling apart and there isn't shit I can do to help it. I can't live happily right now. I just can't.

You're an even greater friend. You're one of the most caring, kind, and overall wonderful people I've ever had the honor of knowing. I wish we could hang out sometimes. It'd be nice to see your face again and to just get out.

We can always hang out. You can come with me to places. To be able to get your head out of the problems and situations. To be free.
You dont need to forget to feel better. You just need to let go. Youre heart needs to let go. You're at the beginning of your life. There is so uch to look forward to. Dont settle for now. Look towards the future. for happiness. For life.

I never know if you go places. I really need a little freedom.
I don't want to let go, though. I promised her, with my life, I'd always be here for her. The most I have to look forward to is getting my license and getting her back.

You can keep your promise, but for now. dont let it bring you down. If you plan to be with her again, then think towards that. think how happy you will be. and just look forward to that future together. and it will be great.

I can text you when it is and Ill pick you up so we can go

I don't know if she'll even feel the same by July...

Aww, but I live sooo far away D: Well, not that exaggeratedly but still.... East Lancaster. Meh, I could always just give you gas money.

xD that works. And you can come and hang out. relax and meet new friends.
but july. hmm. i guess yo will have to believe in each others hearts.

That would be amazing. Btw, hookah
Yep... I hope she still feels the same way. Well, I know she still wears the ring I gave her around her neck. She refuses to take it off.

omg yesss *___* lets go to hookah!!! Primos? x3

thats sweet. If she refuses to, then im sure she will always have those feelings.

I'm not 18 :/ Anyone's house is cool with me.

And that's pretty much all I'm hanging on to... That little glimmer of hope.

Dammit! I forget this xD. Youre 2 years younger? or one?
I dont have a hookah so :c.

Even though its small. its something of hope. something to look forward to for happiness.

One. I've been 17 since the 10th, actually.
Damn. I don't know then.... fuck. Well, do you know Davon Evans? I know you know Devin; Davon's his brother.

Yeah... *sighs*

devin.. and he has a brother names davon? xD wow. shitty parents. jk. no i dont know him

awww your a babby.

*hugs* dont look down. Keep your head up and stay strong.

Yeah... And their mom's name is Dana. Black people... ugh. Well, Davon has one that he uses frequently and we're pretty good friends.

Yep :/

*hugs back* Ugh. I just hope tomorrow is a better day. I have a feeling that, since it's the Friday before spring break, it's gonna suck.

Ah, i see. Hmm. I dont know him sorry :c.

hmm,well. we could hang out more over your spring break. I mean I have school, but not all day

Wow, fail on my part for not replying. I hate when I do that

Ah. Well, I'm sure he'd be more than willing to let us use it!

That would be just fine with me.

All up to him. :P

Yep!

wee*hugs* i miss you mark

*hugs back tightly* I miss you too :(

:c. how is school other than shitty?

Crappy, terrible, unbearable, angering, annoying, pointless. I fucking hate it there. I hate walking through the halls. For some reason, it just irritates me. I just hate everything about it.

Next year better go by fast. I'm already wishing I could get out of there and I still have a year left.

I'm gonna go to bed. I'll talk to ya later. Thank you so much for being here for me. I wish I could ever repay you.

I'm not sure I have the answers to all of you questions but I can say that there's no reason for a permonant solution to a temporary problem. There's so much life to live. so many new furs to meet, many cons to go to and alot of things to do. I may be a new watcher and I may not know you that well but I took the time and I care enough to sit here and put time into you. There are furs who care about you.