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Merpeople have flooded my basement.
14 years ago
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"Merpeople have flooded my basement."
That's at least what came to mind when I thought of a line to describe the level of sanity I am currently operating on.
Don't worry, no mermaids are actually in my basement, and no, it is not flooded. Although my head does feel as if it is made of swiss cheese.
I am taking a moment to put an update journal, since it's been a while since I have posted one. Life is still hectic, plans are changing all the time - I think spring has finally arrived. Come to think of it, spring timed itself perfectly with my roommate deciding he might not be returning - he might be going out to New Mexico to go to college and live with his new girlfriend (whom I discovered the existence of two weeks ago).
I need to hammer away at my project still - been finishing up the stress concentration sections and spent the day trying to derive the values of stress concentrations in threaded members from a source that lacks clarification to an extreme level. At every turn, I see more and more things that I never learned in college - because they simply weren't taught. And I am trying to figure then out. I want to learn, but at the same time, it makes me disgusted at all the time and effort I wasted jumping through hoops while so much information was withheld. It also scares me - how can the people I knew who went through college on the emphasis "You don't need to learn anything in college, you'll be taught everything you need to know once you get a job." have graduated and gotten jobs out of it.
Ah well, this is the price I pay for not having my life in order. I know I can still be awesome if I keep trying. And I'm trying to think of all the good things that I used to know and act on to find my way. I'm trying to stay away from my re-emerging urges to play World of Warcraft, EVE, LoL, Cosmic Break, and so many other games.
And that's why it's important to make journals like this, to remember what exactly it is that you are committed to, and why. The people that are important. The things that are important. Despite everyone that gets in your way, lies to you, goes behind your back or is otherwise deceitful. Everyone that gets in your way... because those 'despites', don't really matter - the things that are important are what matters.
and so I am going to press on, get back to work, and do a kick ass job. While remembering things I used to say, like this;
"If you won't champion for something good, you are rather limited in what you can champion for."
I'm a real corny person, aren't I? :P
That's at least what came to mind when I thought of a line to describe the level of sanity I am currently operating on.
Don't worry, no mermaids are actually in my basement, and no, it is not flooded. Although my head does feel as if it is made of swiss cheese.
I am taking a moment to put an update journal, since it's been a while since I have posted one. Life is still hectic, plans are changing all the time - I think spring has finally arrived. Come to think of it, spring timed itself perfectly with my roommate deciding he might not be returning - he might be going out to New Mexico to go to college and live with his new girlfriend (whom I discovered the existence of two weeks ago).
I need to hammer away at my project still - been finishing up the stress concentration sections and spent the day trying to derive the values of stress concentrations in threaded members from a source that lacks clarification to an extreme level. At every turn, I see more and more things that I never learned in college - because they simply weren't taught. And I am trying to figure then out. I want to learn, but at the same time, it makes me disgusted at all the time and effort I wasted jumping through hoops while so much information was withheld. It also scares me - how can the people I knew who went through college on the emphasis "You don't need to learn anything in college, you'll be taught everything you need to know once you get a job." have graduated and gotten jobs out of it.
Ah well, this is the price I pay for not having my life in order. I know I can still be awesome if I keep trying. And I'm trying to think of all the good things that I used to know and act on to find my way. I'm trying to stay away from my re-emerging urges to play World of Warcraft, EVE, LoL, Cosmic Break, and so many other games.
And that's why it's important to make journals like this, to remember what exactly it is that you are committed to, and why. The people that are important. The things that are important. Despite everyone that gets in your way, lies to you, goes behind your back or is otherwise deceitful. Everyone that gets in your way... because those 'despites', don't really matter - the things that are important are what matters.
and so I am going to press on, get back to work, and do a kick ass job. While remembering things I used to say, like this;
"If you won't champion for something good, you are rather limited in what you can champion for."
I'm a real corny person, aren't I? :P
