So at the last minute I decided to go to FWA for a day. I really wish I hadn't. I had a serious feeling that I shouldn't have, but I did, and I'm really really sorry that I did. There's different reasons, but mostly because of something that I just found out a few minutes ago.

For anyone not in the know My roommates and I have been trying to move since the beginning of the year. Our apartment is falling apart, it rains and foods in our living room. It used to be that if we took a shower it flooded and rained in the kitchen, and not to mention that it's not the best neighborhood. After a series of events we arranged to move to one of the flats on the other side of the complex.

I've known for a while that they were going to do some kinda credit check on the four of us. I'm almost certain that I'm going to fail it because I've got really bad credit. Its what happens when you get hospitalized for various problems, and have no way of paying them.

So, I've been on edge for most of the month waiting to hear back about this thing. I wasn't too worried about till now. I've got family coming at the end of the month. If I can't move to the new place then, I'll just go back to IL. with them. What I am worried about is they just put out word that if one of us fails the credit check then we have to leave and they're not being clear about if it's immediately or not. So I regret going to FWA because I was an idiot and didnt think and spent most of my cash at FWA which means that If I suddenly needed to get a small trailer to pack my shit into I couldn't.

The thing is I really don't care if I have to go back or not. I hate it down here. It's not because the people I know and more just in general. I've sad it a million times before the only reason why I stay here is because of Ginko, but face with not having a home and being in a relationship with a loving mate I'd have to pick the home first.

If this does happen I'm almost dropping out of the fandom. I'll probly still prowl around FA for porn and crap. I may even go to MFF because that's where I do my Christmas shopping.

This is all for different reasons. I'm not the most active as it is because most furs piss me off and I'm just fucking tired of all the bull shit. I'm not saying everyone is bad but I've dealt enough with bad furs to have been burned out in the fandom a while ago. Another reason is that, while there's certainly a great many more openly furry folk around central Illinois, I've had enough bad experiences with a few that make me regret delving further into furry, and make me hesitant about returning. And thirdly I'm starting to care less and less. I'm all outta give a shit.

so any ways that's about it.