Lately I been a rather pissed and miserable piece of shit to be around. My depression I see tests our relation which I feel awful about yet I can't and don't want to fake being happy when I am miserable. There's nothing in particular setting this off, just the usual stuff that I think about that gets me down. I think I find comfort in being miserable sometimes. I know that may sound like a weird thing but I don't know just how I feel sometimes since that part seems to take up a large part of my life. For my hunny reading this, I am nothing but happy when I am with you, but that's just it, we are not together and while talking is nice, its not the same thing. I just don't want you to think I am unhappy with you in any way since I'm not. For anyone else who I ignored or haven't been to chatty with, I'm sorry.