It's been 7 months since the last time I hit a low this hard, according to my journals. I only know it's a low because I'm starting to recognize signs of things going south, rather than my perception of myself: I've been in a fog, and that's really the problem in a nutshell.

I'm not sure if I ever mentioned this here, but I've been diagnosed with ADD and Asperger's since childhood. I haven't been medicated for either for years, primarily because I've been so high-functioning that I've been able to do things without it.

But lately, things have gotten bad. Bad enough that I've forgotten to eat. Bad enough that on days where I've booked the whole day with things I need to do, I've instead bicycled three miles out of town for absolutely zero reason - realized it halfway to wherever - and then kept going.

Not to mention my creativity's completely evaporated and anything I have done looks like the work of a stoned alcoholic. (This is one of the many reasons why I'll never smoke or drink: I'm bad enough without their help).

Speaking of forgetting to eat, I think I may have done that today...i'm about to pass out here so post jorunal and maybe after I eat and deal with brain problem will work on Watchtail a bit?