I feel really happy now.. I suddenly thought ,why would I ruin the fun of singing fo1r myself.. by putting too much pressure on it...
.... I accepted it........ I accepted that I can not sing like the one I would like to sing with.. ^w^

and I feel Wonderful XD... *jumps around* accepting failure is much more relaxing then : pushing yourself through the truth.. and being way too hard on yourself XD.... For the first time in my live I Forgave myself for something.. I really feel that this is going to change my live...