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13 years ago
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हम सभी पर समृद्धि और शांति की चमक चलो
सब जो पढ़ने इस धन्य हो और शांति पता चलो.
चलो मुझे तैयार है और तैयार बातें मैं जरूरत
हम सभी पर समृद्धि और शांति की चमक चलो
Most People are not fucking allergic to the fucking sun in a city that keeps killing all the decent trees.
I am so filled with anger right now at everything and have no idea why my anger quotient is so high. I have had to stop myself from breaking things several time today. perhaps it is the lingering death hold some horrible infection continues to have on my mother fucking head making it hard to breath or eat or drink since my nose is almost purely decorative at this point.
Maybe it is the fucked up sleep schedule i am on now for some satanic reason. where i go to bed at about 4 pm and wake up at about 1 am. that pretty much has killed anytime i have with my mate. Perhaps it is all the shit in my head i want to rip out and face fuck with a razor coated police nightstick. the madness and voices and echos and arguments that keep raging YEARS and DECADES after that happened. maybe it is i have gotten nothing productive done in like a week because of this fucking head cold of death. I cannot even really handle the ferrets because of it since ferrets can get any disease that a human does. so i cannot even cuddle Aku. of course there were the pet deaths and now both of my white koi are dead. something is spooking the fuck out of them. and i have no idea what. they are all fine til i go to fucking sleep. so i have been sleeping pretty lightly hoping to find out the cause and destroy it with fire. maybe it is i have hit a point in oblivious where i cannot get through because all the damage to my fucking brain makes me less than cooridnated if stressed. which makes me fear driving more. there are certain movements on the fucking dickshit controller that you do OVER and OVER again. Hundreds of times while accessing stuff in menus. Over and Over and Over. i do them in my fucking dreams for fucks sake. and when things get the slightest stressful i forget them all and do them wrong. it is bad enough in a video game where the consequences are really only time wasting. imagine what will happen otherwise. I can
which of course just shows me how much more worthless i am and how much more stupid i am getting. My mind was one of the last things i could have any faith in or pride in. Bye Bye. was nice knowing you. I do hope someone will be kind enough to kill me when i become a republican as my brain dies. and of course cough just enough to have a useless voice when offices are open. cause life is funny that fucking way.
did i mention i had for a short time gotten closer to having a place i was happy to live in and would be useful. yeah every fucking time i start getting my world set up the way i am comfortable this shit comes and will not stop til it wrecks everything. i guess i am just supposed to live in filth unable to do much of anything and watching every year pass by with less and less to show for it. 40 years of this shit. and i am retarded cause i fucking keep trying and trying.
I am so filled with anger right now at everything and have no idea why my anger quotient is so high. I have had to stop myself from breaking things several time today. perhaps it is the lingering death hold some horrible infection continues to have on my mother fucking head making it hard to breath or eat or drink since my nose is almost purely decorative at this point.
Maybe it is the fucked up sleep schedule i am on now for some satanic reason. where i go to bed at about 4 pm and wake up at about 1 am. that pretty much has killed anytime i have with my mate. Perhaps it is all the shit in my head i want to rip out and face fuck with a razor coated police nightstick. the madness and voices and echos and arguments that keep raging YEARS and DECADES after that happened. maybe it is i have gotten nothing productive done in like a week because of this fucking head cold of death. I cannot even really handle the ferrets because of it since ferrets can get any disease that a human does. so i cannot even cuddle Aku. of course there were the pet deaths and now both of my white koi are dead. something is spooking the fuck out of them. and i have no idea what. they are all fine til i go to fucking sleep. so i have been sleeping pretty lightly hoping to find out the cause and destroy it with fire. maybe it is i have hit a point in oblivious where i cannot get through because all the damage to my fucking brain makes me less than cooridnated if stressed. which makes me fear driving more. there are certain movements on the fucking dickshit controller that you do OVER and OVER again. Hundreds of times while accessing stuff in menus. Over and Over and Over. i do them in my fucking dreams for fucks sake. and when things get the slightest stressful i forget them all and do them wrong. it is bad enough in a video game where the consequences are really only time wasting. imagine what will happen otherwise. I can
which of course just shows me how much more worthless i am and how much more stupid i am getting. My mind was one of the last things i could have any faith in or pride in. Bye Bye. was nice knowing you. I do hope someone will be kind enough to kill me when i become a republican as my brain dies. and of course cough just enough to have a useless voice when offices are open. cause life is funny that fucking way.
did i mention i had for a short time gotten closer to having a place i was happy to live in and would be useful. yeah every fucking time i start getting my world set up the way i am comfortable this shit comes and will not stop til it wrecks everything. i guess i am just supposed to live in filth unable to do much of anything and watching every year pass by with less and less to show for it. 40 years of this shit. and i am retarded cause i fucking keep trying and trying.
still don't like overly warm weather, and live where there's too damd much of it myself.
and the concept of air shed is totally alien to the town where i live too.
they HAD an urban reserve, but development cash flow meant more to them.
so the only places not slated for build-out within the city limits are the easements under the high power inter-tie.
and of course, nothing taller then a blade of grass is permitted to grow there.
well there IS a creek, with some parks and some semi-wild areas along it. no where near the area needed to provide breathable air for a city its size though.
and there are trees, mostly on private land, though the parks and the creek-side have some too.
so maybe we're not as bad off as what it sounds like you're describing.
future "redevelopment plans" however, do call illogically for vastly increased expanses of pavement. as if the micro-climate weren't adversely enough effected by how much we have now.