Too Much Going on - Hard to keep up and stay on path.
13 years ago
Do you ever happen to think there is to much really going on that really you find yourself in the middle of. Often in this case you become entwined in the whole ordeal and unable to keep silent, so you let your voice out in full force for what you believe is good reasoning. Subsequently that perhaps the more effective role is to keep silent and let it role. To be honest fuel the flames of hatred or anger just leads to even a bigger mess perhaps even an explosion some to a caliber unsuspected that could happen. Lately I have found my self down this beaten path many time recently. I have had very many valid points to join in although also there is great reason not to get involved being subtle caring and blunt.... so here we sit at a crossroad in life.
One leads to complete and utter chaos some of it which we have no ill will toward even existing and may indeed say so in our words, text, and actions. That sad truth to it though is no matter how hard we try to make it clear it not what we mean it is what indeed is taken for, so taking this route may seem by far the most simple, enjoyable or effective. I say simple cause it is so easy to play the pass on blame or problems be crude; in fact its in our nature as humans that we lie, cheat, take shortcuts to make life more of a breeze (yes even though some of us feel in-tuned to our furry self to the point we feel we merely exhibit a physical image of humanity ... but no matter how much we believe... fact is fact and that is we have all the characteristic of being human not necessarily hobbies or specialties as that clearly varies. ie one lier can be better than another at it). Now I have indeed heard this many times oh I never lie ... but really who we kidding that itself is a lie, simply because lie doesn't mean it hurts people in fact it may be helpful, protecting (self wise included), and down right excuse for avoiding.
Second road and yet less taken as it appears dark weary and downright spooky and you know that many challenging endeavors lay ahead. Yes indeed hands down looking back and forth between the roads you see clearly why this one not taken often. To be silent and knowing to put forth your opinions in calm smooth way to make it clear what really wrong or bothersome, but only as a mere instruction or guideline. It seems pointless don't it and definitely the opposite of fun, but the thing is it does work leaving destructiveness kept to a minimal... almost absent plus you can often sometimes see more from each side this way. The publicity is also kept minimal which is nice (not always the best thing though some only learn through humiliation) no reason to involve others that do not need to see or hear of it. People involve directly and indirectly are not hurt. For success of it though the one or group causing the issue must make it to the point were they realize something up and understand it and want to change (however this is true in both your roads). If they don't want to accept or realize; then both methods come a halt as being helpful.... which hopefully was your underlying meaning for it in the only place.
So here we are again at this cross roads ...I am not saying one method is better than the other I am just saying for effects are different but both reach a resolution to the problem.... maybe not the one we are looking for but one just the same. These are my words of wisdom, so take from it what you like. Take all, take none or take some it all up to you (perhaps I am crazy wolf in your eyes thats your call and judgment). So what do you think? what are your thoughts? Your input is appreciated. :)
One leads to complete and utter chaos some of it which we have no ill will toward even existing and may indeed say so in our words, text, and actions. That sad truth to it though is no matter how hard we try to make it clear it not what we mean it is what indeed is taken for, so taking this route may seem by far the most simple, enjoyable or effective. I say simple cause it is so easy to play the pass on blame or problems be crude; in fact its in our nature as humans that we lie, cheat, take shortcuts to make life more of a breeze (yes even though some of us feel in-tuned to our furry self to the point we feel we merely exhibit a physical image of humanity ... but no matter how much we believe... fact is fact and that is we have all the characteristic of being human not necessarily hobbies or specialties as that clearly varies. ie one lier can be better than another at it). Now I have indeed heard this many times oh I never lie ... but really who we kidding that itself is a lie, simply because lie doesn't mean it hurts people in fact it may be helpful, protecting (self wise included), and down right excuse for avoiding.
Second road and yet less taken as it appears dark weary and downright spooky and you know that many challenging endeavors lay ahead. Yes indeed hands down looking back and forth between the roads you see clearly why this one not taken often. To be silent and knowing to put forth your opinions in calm smooth way to make it clear what really wrong or bothersome, but only as a mere instruction or guideline. It seems pointless don't it and definitely the opposite of fun, but the thing is it does work leaving destructiveness kept to a minimal... almost absent plus you can often sometimes see more from each side this way. The publicity is also kept minimal which is nice (not always the best thing though some only learn through humiliation) no reason to involve others that do not need to see or hear of it. People involve directly and indirectly are not hurt. For success of it though the one or group causing the issue must make it to the point were they realize something up and understand it and want to change (however this is true in both your roads). If they don't want to accept or realize; then both methods come a halt as being helpful.... which hopefully was your underlying meaning for it in the only place.
So here we are again at this cross roads ...I am not saying one method is better than the other I am just saying for effects are different but both reach a resolution to the problem.... maybe not the one we are looking for but one just the same. These are my words of wisdom, so take from it what you like. Take all, take none or take some it all up to you (perhaps I am crazy wolf in your eyes thats your call and judgment). So what do you think? what are your thoughts? Your input is appreciated. :)
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But my advice came from an old card game that predicts people in the catagory of a system known as 'Arcana'
I know you've already stated almost the same thing, but this is how I viewed it in Melody's case:
"You definitely fit the Tarot Arcana of the Star (number 17)
The arcana means that there are two roads ahead of you.
One is lit up by a single star, the light is vague, but you can see your surroundings somewhat clearly.
But this road is rough, deralict and utterly alone, and will no doubt have a huge impact on your strength and mentality from such an ordial.
But there is light at the end of the road. A new and happy ending to your story.
The other is pitch black. But the road is smooth, easy on your body to traverse. But at the same time; easy to walk off course.
You can get lost easily, but you wont be alone. All the cowards will be right there with you, suffering in the darkness.
People of the Star arcana will chose the rough road. Because they would rather traverse extreme hardships than not have the ability to see their surroundings for what they realy are. They would rather die than not have any light at the end of their story.
If you are actualy of the Star arcana; You will pull through. Perhaps feeling better than you did before.
What doesnt kill you, makes you stronger~"
I dont know if this is what you wanted to hear or not. But this seemed to help Mel alot, and I hope it can help you to in some way~
And you're not crazy, you're just in tap with what I call your 'Third Eye'. This means that you look apon the moment in a third person perspective, allowing you to analyse both yourself and others simultaniously when you look back on situations of past.
This is a double-edged sword though, it cuts both ways.
You on one hand can relive happy memory's and apply the cause to the now.
But on the flip-side of the coin; You are often forced into reliving the pain that was best left untouched.
All you gotta do is figure out what you wanna do with what you learn from your past.
It's your life after all.
Im honored you consider me so prestigously aswell~
Truely a heart-warming gesture
Finding somebody willing to listen and vent out your emotions on always helps. And your friends are unlikely to judge you for having any occasional breakdown. As just like you said; as much as we might hate to admit it, we are all human at the end of the day. And as humans, emotions tend to go into overdrive if left bundled up for long enough. But friends know the real you, and should be there to absorb the negativity because they know it's not the real you talking, but the venting of built up emotion that needs to be dealt with and accepted.
NOBODY is perfect and for them to say they are perfect is an imperfection. Its what makes life grand, all the differences and once you truly learn to live with them all you have found peace. You just keep doing your thing Kham, you are a great guy and full of knowledge. I miss hanging out with you and farting on your couch! XD Hope all is well and you are doing well! ^.^
I must admit there are times where I want to scream out loud, just throw a chair or table at something. I have a furry character, persay, in my subconscious I try to never let out for good reasons. If it were to be corporeal, it would be a tall, pitch-black bipedal wolf with ice blue eyes and smile so sinister it can scare the light out of a room. That side of me comes to surface when I get angry at others and things don't make sense. My mind sees a sea of chaos and it feels good to be this wolf. He enjoys the result of pain, suffering, sadness, despair. Shortly after he comes out, though, he retreats back in to my subconscious as if an angel or force of good grabs ahold of me, shakes me, and backhands me back into reality.
Never forget that how crazy things may get, however hard something may be, I and the rest of the furry crowd are here for you. You are a fun guy to be around Kham and you have an awesome sense of humor. I can't wait to see you again at Nbowa's next meet!
-Skye
Well put analogy with chess each move and piece have their delicate importance and not to be taken lightly or for granted. Yet if to much thought goes in it can lead to becoming unfinished or pointless as to there is only so much you can do with what handed to ya .... so it's indeed important to decide wisely and with caution but not over think. But please give your actions some thought before engaging in fullforce.