ive been apparently?? having some problems with my mic in all the games i play and i never know until im being yelled at for it

when i try to do anything anywhere someone's saying something about my mic one way or another, no matter how gently you put it it's really upsetting because it's literally all i hear from anyone most days. and its apparently worse when i try to fix... and that really makes my mood tank super hardcore

and i haven't been in the best place lately either, i completely gave up all motivation to do anything but lie around and pokemon all day, i haven't been taking my meds and the only times i go outside are when mom hassles and yells at me to do it

my family life hasn't been great lately either, apparently ever since dad found my blog he can't stop bringing me up every time he talks to anyone in my family and he talks to everyone about how i'm horrible and ungrateful and hate everyone. meanwhile he's hoarding well over $2000 in my property at his house, which i wouldn't be surprised if he decided to throw out within the last year.

i've been very chill with the idea of death lately, i've gone back to the whole "i can't kill myself since everyone around me has expectations that are unrealistic so i'll wait and see if cancer happens" thing.