To anyone and everyone I hurt
13 years ago
I don't know how many people I've hurt will actually see this journal, but I wanna give an apology anyway, especially to someone who once called me mom. I can't help it overracting and getting mad sometimes, apparently I have aspergers or whatever as I found out months ago, and with it comes social disorders and well what I mentioned earlier, anger. I don't want to lose any friends because of this, so I thought I'd say in attempt to make that not happen.
I have Asperger's, as well as several other weird things that make me EXTREMELY different than normal. So don't worry.
I would strongly recommend distancing from things which bother you terribly. You don't have to force yourself to do things that other people find normal just to fit in, when it bothers you. I know it's difficult, because you think differently you need to learn everything on your own...just do your best to know you have friends out there who understand and sympathize with you, and know that the weight of the world isn't on your shoulders. We all make mistakes....those with aspergers tend to be averted to lying as frequently and just get caught more, that's all :)
Maybe something about fantasizing to be something nonhuman appeals to those who think differently from other people.
At least you are worried about accidentally hurting people, there are so many people who don't care or intentionally hurt others.