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Its been a while
13 years ago
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Must seem like I've dropped off the face of the earth, as my last update at all was in December of last year. Things have been great living with my Fiance. Her love has truly been one of the few blessings I've had in recent times. Life has been going a mile a minute, being with her as well as other issues. Recentlly my Grandfather and my father have both passed away. I'm deeply grieved by the loss of these two dominant male figures in my life. A great hole that shall never be filled. I'm sad neither will get a chance to see me get married.
But enough of my personal business. I know I've not held up at all with my resolution to do more art this year. I went to do one in January but photoshop crashed midway and I lost everything. I gave up on it and never returned. In February I managed to do a personal intimate picture between Zadia and I, which I won't be uploading. Since then I've not done a damn thing artwise. its not from a lack of ideas either its still the same ol me dreaming big and being burnt out by my own ambition. Lot easier to just play a game then convince myself to do art
Also my hatchday is coming up, I'll be 30 years old. Oh how the years pass. Seems like forever ago I was in high school not giving a fuck about anything. Now the weight of the world is upon my shoulders. Oh how I've changed through the years. Sadly I'll be alone this year as I'm stuck several states apart from my girl and beardie. My Father's gone and my mother is in the hospital. So much for turning 30 with a bang. I wanted to get myself an art done but I doubt that will happen. Everybody who is decent is expensive or has a list a mile long and I just don't think I'll get that lucky
People probably don't even remember me anymore but I dunno I wanted to show that I still do exist. Everything I knew here almost seems like ancient history. People have moved on or are no longer friends with me. I'm still as adamant about being a scalie raptor as ever, but these days I feel more alone in it then ever.
LOTS OF WORDS. Anyways I'm done. Yay for journals
But enough of my personal business. I know I've not held up at all with my resolution to do more art this year. I went to do one in January but photoshop crashed midway and I lost everything. I gave up on it and never returned. In February I managed to do a personal intimate picture between Zadia and I, which I won't be uploading. Since then I've not done a damn thing artwise. its not from a lack of ideas either its still the same ol me dreaming big and being burnt out by my own ambition. Lot easier to just play a game then convince myself to do art
Also my hatchday is coming up, I'll be 30 years old. Oh how the years pass. Seems like forever ago I was in high school not giving a fuck about anything. Now the weight of the world is upon my shoulders. Oh how I've changed through the years. Sadly I'll be alone this year as I'm stuck several states apart from my girl and beardie. My Father's gone and my mother is in the hospital. So much for turning 30 with a bang. I wanted to get myself an art done but I doubt that will happen. Everybody who is decent is expensive or has a list a mile long and I just don't think I'll get that lucky
People probably don't even remember me anymore but I dunno I wanted to show that I still do exist. Everything I knew here almost seems like ancient history. People have moved on or are no longer friends with me. I'm still as adamant about being a scalie raptor as ever, but these days I feel more alone in it then ever.
LOTS OF WORDS. Anyways I'm done. Yay for journals
Shame about your dad and granddad but I guess these things happen, never easy. Glad you hear that you and your partner are enjoying one anothers company still.
Its a bummer that your birthday won't be as celebratory as you would have liked but I still hope that it is a happy one for you. *hugs* Happy Birthday for the day. *hugs*