I don't even know why I try anymore. None of my friends have time for me. I understand they are busy, but still. I have pretty much stop sending texts to people. My dad is pretty much ignoring me. He talks to my mom and my siblings more than he does me. I'm put on the back shelf by everyone it seems. I was so excited last month when one of my besties said she would go to my sister's wedding with me, but.... now every time I mention it to her, she ignores me and never sends me anything back or calls me or anything.. *sighs* I am going to have to find another date to my sister's wedding or fail at that too, just like I fail at everything else in my life. Even my art is a dead end. I feel at this point, if I was to fall asleep and never wake again, that would be just fine. Depression sucks.. I had a thing like this not too long ago and one of my friends said I could talk to her about it, but.... I sent her a text and... never got a response.... Which didn't help my depression whatsoever. I don't even know why I even keep trying. It's like I am going through life without emotion and everything has become pointless. I don't even know what that means anymore. I am just tired of life I guess, but everyone gets that way. At least I haven't killed myself yet, which is no joking matter. I am just....tired of it all. I used to enjoy role playing, but that has come to a screeching halt and I am wondering if it is even worth the effort anymore. Not looking for pity, so no comments about pity parties please.