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13 years ago
I've fought with myself these past few months on what I thought I needed to be happy. Recent events in my life seemed to cripple me from every angle. I had no self esteem. I thought I was ugly, worthless, and was sure that I'd never be able to find happiness again. I became mopey, emotional and a downright drag to be around.
My issue was that I believed that I HAD to have someone else in my life to be happy. I'm starting to come around to the view that I can't look to someone else to create happiness for me. I have to reach down, somewhere in my hardened heart, and shake it loose. I'm going to create my own happiness. When I can do that, and be content living the way I want, and loving myself for who I am, I just might be able to find someone to share that with.
Every thing that's happened up until now has happened, and I can't change that. My feelings I've learned aren't going to change either. Love isn't something easily found or dispatched. When you truly love someone, you're always going to love them. But instead of looking on those memories past and being sad and regretful, I'll look at them and be glad they happened. I'll recall how fantastically happy I was then and try everything to gain that happiness again, on my own.
My issue was that I believed that I HAD to have someone else in my life to be happy. I'm starting to come around to the view that I can't look to someone else to create happiness for me. I have to reach down, somewhere in my hardened heart, and shake it loose. I'm going to create my own happiness. When I can do that, and be content living the way I want, and loving myself for who I am, I just might be able to find someone to share that with.
Every thing that's happened up until now has happened, and I can't change that. My feelings I've learned aren't going to change either. Love isn't something easily found or dispatched. When you truly love someone, you're always going to love them. But instead of looking on those memories past and being sad and regretful, I'll look at them and be glad they happened. I'll recall how fantastically happy I was then and try everything to gain that happiness again, on my own.
Gotta look to myself for happiness and stop focusing on finding a guy to make me happy.
You're probably making the most important step to having love by being happy on your own. Congratulations, not everyone does.
"Tu me manques"
French. It means "you are missing from me." You shouldn't start as someone half finished. You hit the ground running with them as a complete person and make something you can't do alone. Only then would they truly be a part of you, missing when gone.