so its been a month since I found my local fur group. I have to say my perspective on life has taken several strange and dramatic twists. Ive become much more motivated and seem to be juggling more projects then I can handle. Yet despite that, I manage to overcome. I've quit smoking, I've stuck to my diet, I committed to a gym 3 times a week, I found the most amazing boyfriend in the entire world, I started drawing and writing again, and Ive begun to move out and will be in my new place in a week.

not to mention karma has been overwhelmingly kind to me. I'm shocked and humbled and even found myself asking the entity that watches over me to spread the love to others who are less fortunate. I feel like the cosmos are spoiling me.... I received a bonus of $350 at work randomly, I was granted $1650 in an insurance claim to fix a $200 problem, I gained about $500 on my tax returns, and I just found out the hospital I work at will be giving me $3,000 a year for school.

don't get me wrong, I'm unbelievably grateful for how amazing life is right now... I'm just concerned that I don't deserve all of this, I feel like its all just a dream I'm about to wake up from. Well, I made karma a promise. I wont let anything go to waste, I will continue to live my life with an upbeat positive manor. a smile is contagious, and no matter how dark things get for me and my loved ones, and even those who I have no affiliation with. I will strive to be a beacon that guides others, and through this gesture, I will be guided in turn by them.