Was happily drawing when all of a sudden I got the thought in my head that...well I felt a bit under-appreciated...

I've done multitudes of giftarts for people expecting zero payment in the hopes that I'd get my name out there and my art appreciated...the only thing that has been appreciated however is the amazing silence that my page seems to generate...my point is...I really don't have any fans...

Yes I draw for fun, I draw what I want and I draw because I like to, not that I'm a needy attention hog...though some of my drawings spawn a tiny bit of attention from time to time...I'm just not...known...at all!

Yea granted I had some giftart back when I was with Tonya but...that's the whole point! It was when I was with Tonya...meaning it contained a lot of her with me in it...and they really only drew that because they were friends of her...

To get off the subject of the person I loathe the most in this world...with all of my watchers and friends...I don't exactly...get a lot of gifts, praise, references, or much in the way of...well attention at all...

I suppose on DA and FA it's all about who can draw what and depending on how amazing it is, that art gets the most attention...that to me however seems a bit unfair...just because I'm not the best damn artist out there, doesn't mean I'm not trying...and look at my pictures...all my watchers and I rarely get any views whatsoever! Hell it wasn't until I dated (insert very loud and hateful expletive about Tonya here), that I started getting attention and in the end I was limited and plagued by jealousy anyway...that and I was STILL rarely more appreciated than a sneeze...

So honestly watchers...HONESTLY!! C'mon do SOMETHING for me...ANYTHING...hell Zippy gave me this little running icon...what could possibly hurt for a bit of giftart? An art-trade? A comment or two? Maybe some critiques? Hell what about some llama badges or maybe some reference of me in your next drawing? Don't make me get on my knees and beg...you all watch me because you either A. Like my art or B. Just want to add to your watch list and don't really care either way and provide absolutely no feedback on any of my work...in which case "go fuck yourselves" (you know who you are...)

I have about 30 watchers give or take...and most of the time I end up going around their work and commenting and leaving praise in the hopes that they'll do the same...sure, some of you have come back and done something in return for me...but come on I've been generous enough to draw quite a few of you some good pieces of work! I mean I included Shantal's character Eero http://katwithknives.deviantart.com/ in a comic that took me 6 hours to draw!

My point is...I've been rather generous to the lot of you lately...ESPECIALLY YOU TONY! So...can I maybe have some comments in return? Some praise for my work? Maybe a llama or a slap on the back for a job well done? I'm trying my best and I update very often...I just get SHIT for views or anything else...c'mon! Generate some traffic for me at least! Show your friends and get them to either watch or comment! All I want is a bit more of a reason to draw rather than my own personal boredom!

And no I'm not being ungrateful...because obviously if I was, I would never have drawn anything for any of my fans that asked...namely people like Nikolai McReady, Joey McPherson, and on multiple occasions Tony Ballister and the like...is it too much to ask for you guys to go HEY This guy's art is great you should check it out! Comment! Tell your friends...because he'll love you for it! ...A lot!