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Mood update/mini rant/ and maybe gift art ;3
13 years ago
I think I've managed to rein in a lot of the anger and hate that I've been feeing over the last little while. I'm still working on coaxing my muse to come out of hiding, and some doodles are helping with that, although I'd like someone.. different to draw. So while I can't make any guarantees, if you want to post a pic of one of your characters, a few of their quirks, and if you have an idea of what you'd like them doing, I'll try to give it a shot. Nothing too complex please, and I'll probably be drawing them chibi, deppending on how I feel ;3
the following contains my own opinions, if you choose to read and get offended by them, then that's your own fault ^w^
On another note, I think I've narrowed down the reasons for my anger/hate issues, and it's my childhood... or lack-of rather. I'm not sure how many of you know this, but I was raised as a Jehovah's Witness. My mother was pretty strict about me following the tennents of this cultish religion, which pretty much ostracized me from everyone around me as a child. This has left me with a pretty bitter view on my youth, and while I don't hate -religion- I hate the fanatics that usually get the public face, and the stupid close-minded hate they try to glorify. (honestly I wish all the hateful religious zelots would just DIAF, and yes, I know thats a little hypocrytical but hey, it's how I feel)
I did manage to pull myself away from the religion when I was 13, but it was too late to fix the damage it had caused, and the adversion to me my peers felt because I was -different-. If you're curious how this religion could possibly do this kind of damage. Try being an 5 year old, in a class where all the kids are raving about their christmas presents, with the stigma that "bad" children get coal, and wondering how horrible a child you are for not getting anything at all. Or not being allowed to take part in any class activity if it was about any kind of holiday, or having to leave the room and stand out in the hallway while the national anthem was sung. This is just a few of the things my peers, and the worst one yet, having your parents tell you you're not allowed to make friends because the other children aren't the same religion as you are. Heck, I wasn't even allowed to celebrate my own birthday...
So I guess it's understandable that I'm pretty bitter about my past and religion...
the following contains my own opinions, if you choose to read and get offended by them, then that's your own fault ^w^
On another note, I think I've narrowed down the reasons for my anger/hate issues, and it's my childhood... or lack-of rather. I'm not sure how many of you know this, but I was raised as a Jehovah's Witness. My mother was pretty strict about me following the tennents of this cultish religion, which pretty much ostracized me from everyone around me as a child. This has left me with a pretty bitter view on my youth, and while I don't hate -religion- I hate the fanatics that usually get the public face, and the stupid close-minded hate they try to glorify. (honestly I wish all the hateful religious zelots would just DIAF, and yes, I know thats a little hypocrytical but hey, it's how I feel)
I did manage to pull myself away from the religion when I was 13, but it was too late to fix the damage it had caused, and the adversion to me my peers felt because I was -different-. If you're curious how this religion could possibly do this kind of damage. Try being an 5 year old, in a class where all the kids are raving about their christmas presents, with the stigma that "bad" children get coal, and wondering how horrible a child you are for not getting anything at all. Or not being allowed to take part in any class activity if it was about any kind of holiday, or having to leave the room and stand out in the hallway while the national anthem was sung. This is just a few of the things my peers, and the worst one yet, having your parents tell you you're not allowed to make friends because the other children aren't the same religion as you are. Heck, I wasn't even allowed to celebrate my own birthday...
So I guess it's understandable that I'm pretty bitter about my past and religion...
*Tries shoving a Christmas present through his screen for you*
I think the reason people do these kinds of things to others and to their own children, isn't because they're "extremists", but because they're religious and take religion seriously. The nice, average religious person is nice and average because they accept a mixture of reason/common sense and faith instead of almost entirely faith in their religion. For example, most people are reasonable enough not to stone their daughter for committing adultery. Key word, reasonable. But I wouldn't put it past someone with consistent faith.
I think I could use real therapy, so that I can finally put my past behind me, and focus on my future :)
You've drawn Machi many times but if you are messing around with chibi-fication please feel free to use him if you see fit to. Maybe reading something, perhaps some comics :P