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It hurts...
13 years ago
Its been almost a week since me and my love Mikaela went our sepperate ways now, it still stings to think of it all.
Ive really been trying to get myself through the week, but its been one of the hardest tasks ive ever had to do.
The memories, bonds and links weve made during these years, they were all torn appart by our own decisions, to leave each other, cause we werent good for one and other.
It stings to think about, like someone presses a needle full of sorrow directly into your temple, ive been trying to ignore the feeling by playing videogames, which helps a lot, especially online ones where i socialise with other people, either killing them or building stuff together with them.
But when i get back to the real world, it all turn black, and i can feel the sting of the needle.
Ive been having some rather confusing thoughts lately too, i find myself constantly scanning my surrounding to see if i find a girl who i would like to know better and be with, i guess its the effect of the lonelyness, im automaticly trying to find replacement for that missing space, even though i know, it cant be filled again...
Ive also been thinking alot on tattoos, ive thought about it for a while now, and one thing i would like to decorate my body with, is an Ouroboro dragon, like the ones the Humunculi wears in Full Metal Alchemist, or something having to do with philosophy, since i consider myself a philosopher, though im not certain i even WANT to get one, maybe im just trying to leave a mark reminding me of how much it hurts to lose someone you love.
Ive really been trying to get myself through the week, but its been one of the hardest tasks ive ever had to do.
The memories, bonds and links weve made during these years, they were all torn appart by our own decisions, to leave each other, cause we werent good for one and other.
It stings to think about, like someone presses a needle full of sorrow directly into your temple, ive been trying to ignore the feeling by playing videogames, which helps a lot, especially online ones where i socialise with other people, either killing them or building stuff together with them.
But when i get back to the real world, it all turn black, and i can feel the sting of the needle.
Ive been having some rather confusing thoughts lately too, i find myself constantly scanning my surrounding to see if i find a girl who i would like to know better and be with, i guess its the effect of the lonelyness, im automaticly trying to find replacement for that missing space, even though i know, it cant be filled again...
Ive also been thinking alot on tattoos, ive thought about it for a while now, and one thing i would like to decorate my body with, is an Ouroboro dragon, like the ones the Humunculi wears in Full Metal Alchemist, or something having to do with philosophy, since i consider myself a philosopher, though im not certain i even WANT to get one, maybe im just trying to leave a mark reminding me of how much it hurts to lose someone you love.
