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Wats wrong with me? (conclusion)
13 years ago
EDIT: yep fuck it, fuck love fuck romantic feelings, seriously if someone is just gonna ignore my feelings an go straight into dating backup partner number 2 i dont really wanna b apart of the fucken love boat im soo furious i would punch my wall till i made a cave opening till i bleed, i cant believe how stupid i was my god!! ARGH!!
Something wierd in my head is goin on, im in love with sumone on the net an its makin me go insane kind of hints of me realizing, i bought her pretty much a big gift, i get all flirty lovey dovey wen i watch, see or chat to her, i get a bit jelious inside wen i see her characters via thru art with a different character, i kind of think bout her whenever i draw or dream asleep, i kinda wants this to stop because i dont wana go thru this path an b heart broken again plus she lives far away an i prob wont meet her in person for years to come, shes currently got sumone in her luv life, maybe i need to avoid her an the net for awhile to sort my head out my heart is gettin sore an i dont wana put myself thru this again, i dont know what to do..
Something wierd in my head is goin on, im in love with sumone on the net an its makin me go insane kind of hints of me realizing, i bought her pretty much a big gift, i get all flirty lovey dovey wen i watch, see or chat to her, i get a bit jelious inside wen i see her characters via thru art with a different character, i kind of think bout her whenever i draw or dream asleep, i kinda wants this to stop because i dont wana go thru this path an b heart broken again plus she lives far away an i prob wont meet her in person for years to come, shes currently got sumone in her luv life, maybe i need to avoid her an the net for awhile to sort my head out my heart is gettin sore an i dont wana put myself thru this again, i dont know what to do..
You're lovesick, and you either love this person, or your mind demands strong affection that it creates a false emotion of love to try and relieve the lack of affection.
What you should do is not avoid her, unless you come clean with it and say you need to stop talking with her for a bit.
An alternative is tell a white lie and say you won't be on skype/aim/other IM thing for a month or two for some vacation in, idk, czechoslovakia. then, use that time to think your feelings through. maybe it'll just pass, or maybe it's real and you actually do feel for her. if you need any more help, you could also ask some very close friends or relatives THAT YOU TRUST for help (and not the asshole friend you hang with at parties, they will probably make it worse XP).
I'm also available if you need any more help. Just note me :)
My advice is to talk to her about how you feel. It'll be better to let her know now instead of letting your feelings continue to grow and have a bomb dropped on you later.
I know it's easier said than done, but I think that, given what you've told us, it's the best shot you've got to lessen the pain and keep your heart as unharmed as possible.
I know it's not going to be easy ... in fact I, myself, am still getting over a devistating breakup that happened at the end of December last year ... but if you need someone to talk to, a shoulder to cry on, or simply someone to listen to you, please don't hesitate to send me a note or something.
I wish you all the best. *hugs*