I don't know how to feel,
though it makes me wonder,
if I'm maybe crazy,
in some way or another.

I think one way,
then it turns to something next,
each thought gets worse,
sometimes getting me upset.

Other days,
it's normal and fine,
though as I think about it,
I think I lose my mind.

I try to understand,
that thing inside my head,
though I think it was only put there,
to just give me some dread.

My heart screams something else,
so I try to follow that,
but when I push the two together,
it's like another war set.

Sometimes I'll cry,
Sometimes I'll scream,
Though as this gets worse,
I'll feel new and clean.

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I'll think things through,
and realize I'm silly,
though other times,
it gives me the willies.

I can push through,
this wave of self doubt,
so one day I'll smile,
while I get this straightened out.

If anything bad comes,
I can lean on some few,
so if I ever feel nervous,
I know I'll have you.

So watch me while I push on by,
I'm just trying to get things solved,
so you won't have to cry.

Doing this alone,
is what I do best,
So i'll smile and hit you,
as I make you ask why.

It's just that I'm fixed,
so you don't need to fret,
I'm just fine inside,
nothing is broken yet.

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So many in a room,
so many chances to bloom,

I'll watch you go by,
as I'm feeling shy,

I'll see you all night,
while I work up the might,
but soon you will see,
that I'm just alright.

I haven't found you,
but I can't fret,
I'm still young,
I haven't blossomed yet.

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Looking around this stupid old town,
I think you're not here,
but there's nothing to fear,

I can keep trying,
to find you somehow,
but I'll never be sure,
if this'll work out.

There have been times,
when I've wondered of you,
thinking that maybe,
you're wondering too.

If I find you,
somewhere in this place,
I'll smile and wave,
kind of in an excited weird way.

Hope isn't lost,
so I think it's alright.
I'll see you someday,
when the time is just right.