I always ruin things. I'll get my 2nd chance and then I'll screw it up. I dot know why I do this. But I would like for myself to stop. I hate feeling like a failure I don't want people to give up on me. There are only about 2 people I trust in my life and I can tell they're slowly giving up. I don't know what to do. If I lost them I would be lost myself. I just need people to explain things to me. If I do something wrong then just explain it to me. Don't give up on me. I can try harder an do better. I just don't have anything going for me right now and it's very upsetting. I need support instead of people nagging all the time. I'll do what you want me to do eventually. Idk how to make people happy all the time. :( I wish I did. Then I wouldn't be stuck in this situation. I'm confused and I need someone to help me realize what I need to do. And for someone who I know I've angered and upset in the past that is hopefully reading this...I'm sorry. I will try my very freaking best to make you happy. You gave me multiple 2nd chances and I have a feeling this is one of the last ones. I won't let you down. I won't give you a reason to give up on me...I'm becoming stronger because of you and you can't give up now. I just need to be taught and reminded of some things.