I've been feeling very depressed and ugly as of late. I can help but get a sense of "I hate fate people" from some people I admire. Though they never said it outright, I just can help but think "Oh I'd like to meet them in real life but they'd probably hate me because I'm fat". It's not just them and it's not just in this fandom. It's everywhere. I've tried losing weight and I did succeed at one point but it just ended up back on. I've tried many times since then but I never lost a pound. I just feel so ugly and unattractive because of this thing below my chest. I think I should go into hiding and never come out.