Throughout childhood I always had minor issues around the potty, I'd have accidents, wet the bed etc. and I was terrified of being put back in diapers - when a diaper commercial came on TV I was profoundly uncomfortable, etc. I would get in trouble for having dirty underwear and stuff. I also liked being the "baby" whenever we played house. As often happens, fears are a sign of latent desire.
One day when I was around 11 I came across a Penthouse Letter about ABDL and it had a drawing of a diapered girl.. and it gave me the idea to try it out.
My first orgasm was in a makeshift pillowcase diaper and it just went on from there. It was my darkest secret that I didn't tell anyone about until I was in my early to mid 20s.
oatmeal is great for the skin, helping keep it baby soft :D now, if you knew said furs, would you allow them to change your oatmealy diaper or pour the oatmeal into your diaper for you?
Would you ever draw a large group of diaper furs just chilling in their padding? Maybe some being used, etc. You got a lot of diaper pals including myself :3
The answer is no, I kept that policy intact for the entire year 2011 but I broke it this year.. and as a result I haven't worn diapers nearly as often, although it hasn't harmed my obsessiveness levels :3
I have liked diapers in general almost all my life, I first started noticing them as something I wanted on some level at the age of 7, but definitely since I was 11 so.. cripes, nearly 30 years now. :/
It does vary from time to time, but I'm not in control of that process. If I am fixated on something, then just thinking about the same thing over and over is fine with me. It's actually a little frustrating sometimes, like I can't quite get it as emphatically as I want so I need to fantasize about it again, usually it's a sign I need to do it IRL to get it out of my system, but if I can't do it IRL then the obsession keeps looping.
and I can't lie, I enjoy that obsessiveness and feeling of being barely in control of this kink so I kind of foster it :3
...except with diapers?
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One day when I was around 11 I came across a Penthouse Letter about ABDL and it had a drawing of a diapered girl.. and it gave me the idea to try it out.
My first orgasm was in a makeshift pillowcase diaper and it just went on from there. It was my darkest secret that I didn't tell anyone about until I was in my early to mid 20s.
Weirdly enough, IRL I'm not that crazy about actual messing. Oatmeal though, rrf.
more than that is pretty rare.
and I can't lie, I enjoy that obsessiveness and feeling of being barely in control of this kink so I kind of foster it :3