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13 years ago
Sorry I haven't done much or been too active lately. I've been doodling a lot, but not everything I want to share.
There are requests and gifts I have to do, but I'm not really into starting or doing them right now. But I haven't forgotten what I need to do.
(For those who really don't care, you can just skip to the end.)
[rant]
Personal update: Things have been weird lately. My boyfriend and I have been fighting nonstop, and I just don't feel like I can talk to him anymore about how I feel or what goes on in my head. We disagree ALL the time. I'm thinking we're finally at the end of the road. Don't worry, there's no need to apologize or feel bad for me; it's been a long time coming. He's made mistakes he'll have to live with, and I've tried getting over them, but sometimes it's just hard to overlook it. Really hard.
I want to be there for him, and I do love him. So very much. But when you argue about your future all the time, you can't agree on anything, plans fall through constantly, and you can't talk to each other about the way you feel, is it really even a relationship anymore? Some of you say yes, but I've been on and off with this person on at least five different occasion, and each time, a piece of my love for him turns to stone and falls off.
Not to mention I sometimes fear for my health. He has a very bad temper, and sometimes when he's angry, he literally rages. Sometimes I thank god that I'm not physically with him all the time, especially when he's mad. The back of my mind tells me that he has the capacity to harm me.
When it comes down to it, he's made me a better person, but he's also made me a very bitter one. And I don't know what else to do.
Also, I've been trying to be more family oriented. I spend a lot of time on the internet, and now even more because my work IS on the internet. So I'm trying to participate more around my household and social gatherings. Hanging out with my friends, because I don't see them either, due to work and school on all of our part. I miss them like crazy, and sometimes I wonder if my boost in art output is due in part to the fact that I don't do much else.
I'm trying. I'm trying to keep a level head. I think the universe is testing my mettle right now. I've got to concentrate on work while trying to balance my social life; two extremes that have always been kind've...hard for me. And then I've actually got two men that I've been communicating with recently that have taken a potential interest in me, and I can't help but reciprocate because I've never had this kind of thing happen to me before.
Trust me, though. I'm not diving into ANYTHING. I need to clear up some things.
[/rant]
Requests/Giftart
(This does NOT mean I'm open for things right now, just a reminder to myself)
On FA
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-
Off FA
- Pokemon trainers (giftart)
- Rinoa pinup (request)
- Zombie pinup (art-trade)
- Mermaid (art-trade)
There are requests and gifts I have to do, but I'm not really into starting or doing them right now. But I haven't forgotten what I need to do.
(For those who really don't care, you can just skip to the end.)
[rant]
Personal update: Things have been weird lately. My boyfriend and I have been fighting nonstop, and I just don't feel like I can talk to him anymore about how I feel or what goes on in my head. We disagree ALL the time. I'm thinking we're finally at the end of the road. Don't worry, there's no need to apologize or feel bad for me; it's been a long time coming. He's made mistakes he'll have to live with, and I've tried getting over them, but sometimes it's just hard to overlook it. Really hard.
I want to be there for him, and I do love him. So very much. But when you argue about your future all the time, you can't agree on anything, plans fall through constantly, and you can't talk to each other about the way you feel, is it really even a relationship anymore? Some of you say yes, but I've been on and off with this person on at least five different occasion, and each time, a piece of my love for him turns to stone and falls off.
Not to mention I sometimes fear for my health. He has a very bad temper, and sometimes when he's angry, he literally rages. Sometimes I thank god that I'm not physically with him all the time, especially when he's mad. The back of my mind tells me that he has the capacity to harm me.
When it comes down to it, he's made me a better person, but he's also made me a very bitter one. And I don't know what else to do.
Also, I've been trying to be more family oriented. I spend a lot of time on the internet, and now even more because my work IS on the internet. So I'm trying to participate more around my household and social gatherings. Hanging out with my friends, because I don't see them either, due to work and school on all of our part. I miss them like crazy, and sometimes I wonder if my boost in art output is due in part to the fact that I don't do much else.
I'm trying. I'm trying to keep a level head. I think the universe is testing my mettle right now. I've got to concentrate on work while trying to balance my social life; two extremes that have always been kind've...hard for me. And then I've actually got two men that I've been communicating with recently that have taken a potential interest in me, and I can't help but reciprocate because I've never had this kind of thing happen to me before.
Trust me, though. I'm not diving into ANYTHING. I need to clear up some things.
[/rant]
Requests/Giftart
(This does NOT mean I'm open for things right now, just a reminder to myself)
On FA
-
-
-
Off FA
- Pokemon trainers (giftart)
- Rinoa pinup (request)
- Zombie pinup (art-trade)
- Mermaid (art-trade)
I hope things work out for you soon though, for good and not for ill. It'd hurt to hear you getting worse...