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Pissed off and hurt [vent]
13 years ago
I've been trying my best to be a cheery person around the house. I try to make sure I take my medicine and try my best to not get pissed off or upset over 'stupid' shit.
I've been so fucking depressed lately that I can hardly stand it, but I still put on a smile and try my best to not let it show. Especially around my family. Because I don't want pity.
But it pisses me off to no extent when shit like this happens.
My sister has been with some dickwad for too damn long. They've broken up and gotten back together like fucking a thousand times. She should never have been with this guy, he was a psycho and a stalker.
Yeah, he would stalk her, he would go to her work when she said she was working and make sure she was there and he would take pictures of her work schedule and shit like that. He even called my mother once and asked if she actually had a doctors appt. when she said she did.
Anyways, well he went psycho.
They were broken up and after prom my sister went to a party and he was there, well a bunch of shit went down and she ended up going over to his house. Well she left her iPhone 4S unlocked (she no longer had a lock on it) in the room he was in which her psycho ex was, while she went to the bathroom. Well he saw a picture of a guy she'd been talking to, got pissed and threw the phone into a concrete wall.
Needless to say it was absolutely destroyed.
Well now that they are LEGIT broken up.
She constantly is upset and crying and stuff.
Which I would understand & I do. I comfort her all the time when I see her upset.
BUT she isn't even really upset over her ex as much as the loss of her phone -_o
BUT STILL THIS ISN'T WHAT I'M MAD ABOUT
I'm just really explaining in order to say why I'm pissed.
WHAT I'M PISSED ABOUT
or even more so, hurt about, is the fact that my mum is constantly babying her. If she's upset they rush out and do something to make her feel better. Just now she was crying so they ran out to iHop....
Even then, that's fine. But the fact that they don't even bother to invite me or my husband? It's fucking bullshit.
They went to take my dad lunch and balloons up to work. I would have enjoyed going along, but do I get invited? Nope.
Do I ever get invited to do anything? Hardly. It fucking pisses me off so badly.
And it's always the same excuse. 'o you guys were sleeping'
So you couldn't fucking wake up up?
It just hurts me dude. I literally only leave the house to take and pick up my husband from work.
And occasionally we go to the store or some other shit.
I fucking hate how my life is right now. THE ONLY thing that makes me happy is my husband and talking to Itsu. Everything else, just fucking sucks ass.
So you don't feel like it'd be nice to just come in and say, "Hey you guys want to ----?"
No, that never crosses their mind. And my dad is the only one who actually care enough to ask if I want to do something. Like watch a movie or someshit.
Idk just fucking hurt and pissed off at how my mum treats me like I barely exist sometimes..
Like ugh idk she just hurts me. Like she was trying to hide what she was saying to my dad when she was asking if she could take my sister to ihop...
And when confronted about it, she's like 'well you usually don't have clothes clean or aren't awake or we didn't plan it" or some other excuse.
I just ugh. I don't get it..
I always feel like people make sure they avoid me. I'm not the one people come to. I'm the second or third choice. whatever. I should be use to this shit.
I fucking can't stand it. I set up an account on monster, so I really fucking hope I find a job. I can't deal with this shit.
I've been so fucking depressed lately that I can hardly stand it, but I still put on a smile and try my best to not let it show. Especially around my family. Because I don't want pity.
But it pisses me off to no extent when shit like this happens.
My sister has been with some dickwad for too damn long. They've broken up and gotten back together like fucking a thousand times. She should never have been with this guy, he was a psycho and a stalker.
Yeah, he would stalk her, he would go to her work when she said she was working and make sure she was there and he would take pictures of her work schedule and shit like that. He even called my mother once and asked if she actually had a doctors appt. when she said she did.
Anyways, well he went psycho.
They were broken up and after prom my sister went to a party and he was there, well a bunch of shit went down and she ended up going over to his house. Well she left her iPhone 4S unlocked (she no longer had a lock on it) in the room he was in which her psycho ex was, while she went to the bathroom. Well he saw a picture of a guy she'd been talking to, got pissed and threw the phone into a concrete wall.
Needless to say it was absolutely destroyed.
Well now that they are LEGIT broken up.
She constantly is upset and crying and stuff.
Which I would understand & I do. I comfort her all the time when I see her upset.
BUT she isn't even really upset over her ex as much as the loss of her phone -_o
BUT STILL THIS ISN'T WHAT I'M MAD ABOUT
I'm just really explaining in order to say why I'm pissed.
WHAT I'M PISSED ABOUT
or even more so, hurt about, is the fact that my mum is constantly babying her. If she's upset they rush out and do something to make her feel better. Just now she was crying so they ran out to iHop....
Even then, that's fine. But the fact that they don't even bother to invite me or my husband? It's fucking bullshit.
They went to take my dad lunch and balloons up to work. I would have enjoyed going along, but do I get invited? Nope.
Do I ever get invited to do anything? Hardly. It fucking pisses me off so badly.
And it's always the same excuse. 'o you guys were sleeping'
So you couldn't fucking wake up up?
It just hurts me dude. I literally only leave the house to take and pick up my husband from work.
And occasionally we go to the store or some other shit.
I fucking hate how my life is right now. THE ONLY thing that makes me happy is my husband and talking to Itsu. Everything else, just fucking sucks ass.
So you don't feel like it'd be nice to just come in and say, "Hey you guys want to ----?"
No, that never crosses their mind. And my dad is the only one who actually care enough to ask if I want to do something. Like watch a movie or someshit.
Idk just fucking hurt and pissed off at how my mum treats me like I barely exist sometimes..
Like ugh idk she just hurts me. Like she was trying to hide what she was saying to my dad when she was asking if she could take my sister to ihop...
And when confronted about it, she's like 'well you usually don't have clothes clean or aren't awake or we didn't plan it" or some other excuse.
I just ugh. I don't get it..
I always feel like people make sure they avoid me. I'm not the one people come to. I'm the second or third choice. whatever. I should be use to this shit.
I fucking can't stand it. I set up an account on monster, so I really fucking hope I find a job. I can't deal with this shit.
*offers hugs* I'm so sorry to hear about that ignorant shit.
She apologized though, and did say she never meant to leave me out or hurt me.
I'm just really close to my parents and I don't want to lose that xD
<3
And, I'm the oldest of 5 kids. I understand your frustration, I think :/