... I am just doomed... if I love a lot or not so much something bad will happen... I already know that T.T I am just now too afraid of love.... I am afraid of love now.... I am not being dramatic or something, its the truth, I am now scared of love because all the time goes wrong and even when I do my best and all goes perfect, something bad most happen.... I am gay/bisexual... and now... when my heart was big and open... now is closed... and... I am not sure.. but it maybe will stay like that for ever T.T