I have severed those strings that held me back for so long now...it seems like it lasted an eternity. So now I am finally single and looking once more!

Only thing is...I don't want just anybody...I want someone who is special. Someone who makes me feel special. So that means no going on random dates, no playing around with random anyone. I want a friend first, then maybe a partner second.

There are certain things I need to find in someone to find them to be a possible partner. Trust, honesty, honor, pride, respect, sexual appeal, an open mind, someone who can accept my gifts and my support and everything I give them, personality, some spontaneity, the desire to travel some, confidence, enlightenment, and the ability to capture me with her every move...her every word...her eyes alone...and make time come to a stop...and for that moment nothing matters and we are the only two in the universe...just she and I...and I am captivated and I am invincible and I feel perfect and she is perfect in my own two eyes..and I never want that moment to stop.

If she is out there...I cannot wait to find her. I have an entire heart to give...a soul to redeem once more...and I have a future. I want a home. I want love. I want a child to call my own. I want many things out of life...and I want more than anything someone to share that with. Being alone is something that destroys me and leaves me awake at night tossing and turning wishing I had someone to hold close. I want her warm skin on my own...to feel her breath caress my lips as she leans in for a loving kiss...to feel her arms wrapped around my body holding me closer to give her that warmth and that closure...her hair as it falls into place and tickles my face as we have our lips locked in a a bond that cannot be broken by the end of the world...her toes brushing my own and our feet mingling beneath the sheets we wear to conceal our naked bodies...as our legs then intertwine and we become one with our significant other...our breathing becomes short and our hearts beat faster, and faster, and faster until they feel they are to explode at any given moment...the butterflies simply want to pull us from our bed and take us to the heavens above where we belong...and our minds become foggy and the only thoughts on our minds are each other...and when we break our eyes stay closed and we lift our hands to each others hearts and feel them beating with the greatest passion known to one another...and in that moment, all time ceases to exist...the fathom of reality is but a mere dream...not a single other life-form or object in this world even exists...and not a single light source is needed, because we can see the other perfectly fine with what's in our minds without having to see a single thing with our eyes...in that very moment, nothing can or will go wrong...this is perfection in it's finest form.

My heart bleeds yet...and all I need is for someone to come to me and awaken it once more and let it beat loudly so the whole world will know that I love this woman with all of it and there is nothing anyone or anything can do to stop me from loving her.

Please if you exist...and if there is a god or anyone who watches over me...even if it is you who is my guardian angel...please, let me find you as soon as I possibly can, because my heart is dead and I feel alone now more than ever. Everyday I wake up and I wish for death and for the world to come to an end...after having nightmares and restless sleep all night if I even sleep at all. I want my angel to save me from this Hell I am living in and to bring me to a new Heaven. I beg you whoever is listening...let me find her and I will be forever grateful and I will do whatever it takes to give my all and to show her everyday that I love her infinitely!