Well... no bad news at least even if I'm not entirely satisfied with the results. For those who don't know, for the past year I've been having random hot flashes. Got some blood work and a 24-hour urine test done and everything comes back normal. Whenever these hotflashes happen my temp is always normal too. Noticed a few triggers. Sporadically when I drink caffeine I got a hot feeling. But, while distracting, it's not painful. When I get scared like I'm in deep shit or I'm getting angry and worked up I get a REALLY bad one that actually HURTS. I get a less severe one, even if still painful, when I face something I have to think hard about and don't get. One instance of that was my accounting classes. Just couldn't wrap my head around it and the more I tried to get it and force the work, the worse and longer the heat would last.

So what seems to be the problem then? Doctor says it sounds like all I have is a heightened sense of Fight-or-Flight. I have a more intense reaction to stressful situations. She also says my lack of sleep could be making the problem worse. So... solutions? Firstly, gotta try and get more sleep. She also said I could try using Melotonin since it's a fairly safe sleep aid. Secondly... try to reduce my stress level.

Yeah... let's count the number of things stressing me out shall we?
1. Relationship: I have a boyfriend. Relationships bring stresses of their own and that's normal, or so I'm told. My puppy and I are in a long distance one though and I'm somewhat depressed that we can't get together yet. Further problems are it's a gay relationship. Those are getting to be more accepted but still not looked highly upon by a longshot! Coupled with the fact I'm Christian (and yes, I do believe homosexuality is a sin) and come from a Christian family who's not quite as open-armed as I am... I think you can see where I'm going with this. Thankfully brother is perfectly accepting of me but I kinda told Mom when I was mad one day. Don't know when she's gonna tell Dad but I'm pretty sure he's gonna be pissed.
2. Actually.... the rest of my problems sadly revolve around my parents. Try telling that to them without it sounding like an accusation... Currently out of neccessity, I'm living with my parents. The deal I made when I moved back in with them was I had to go to school full-time. Now let's focus on that for a second. Right there, I didn't go to school for the right reason. I went so I'd have a place to stay and so I could make an attempt to live up to my parent's expectations for me. Apparently I took some test in highschool and was found to have an IQ of... I think 120 something? My case manager (I was in special eduaction) said I was smarter than most of the teachers there. Looking back now I wish I'd have punched her in the face cause that's what started a downward spiral. I tried college, I REALLY did! But first semster I failed three of my classes before midterms! Second one because of those hotflashes and the ensuing depression from them I missed a couple important tests in another class I could have passed and I failed two of the four I took. The more I try it seems, the more I fail and fall short of my parent's expectations. I love them, and I know for a fact they honestly love me and do think I can do much more than I am now. But either I can't give myself enough credit, or they give me too much (or could be a mix of both, IQ isn't an accurate measure of intelligence after all). But I digress...
3. Housing: Now let's focus on the housing part of the above problem. I'm on academic suspension. I know for a fact now, I cannot handle college full time. This means I cannot uphold my part of the deal with my parents. Now it sounds like so far my mom will (or was gonna before I told her I was bi... she wondered aloud if I'd be staying after dad found out) allow me to stay assuming I go back in the next spring semseter. I really don't think I am because I'd only be able to handle maybe two classes in any given semester. They think I should be able to handle it so I doubt part-time will fly with them so I'm out. THANKFULLY this stress has been lessened CONSIDERABLY thanks to  GladiatorW07f and  silvester_campes generously offering me housing with them. Won't have to worry about losing the place for no rent either thanks to it being Silvester's house.
4. Medical: If I don't go to college full-time, I'm gonna lose my medical coverage. My current coverage is under my father's policy for him being retired military. I'm covered till I'm 21 OR 25 if I go to college full time. Techincally I can stay under the same company even after that but I think it's $40 a month or something. Plus side if I go that route, anything I get done out at base is fully covered. Also not a big co-pay if they have to send me elsewhere for treatment.
5. Debts: Currently, my family is paying for quite a bit for me. With a few car repairs they've paid for to help me, and a few other troubles they've bailed me out of, I probably owe them $3,000 now. This includes car insurance and the new cell phone too they've been paying for. I finally have a job again but I don't get much a month. Less than $600 after deductions. I also STILL have to finish paying off my credit card. These debts don't include any food, housing, internet, electricity, or cable they've been giving me purely out of the goodness of their hearts either. I hate the fact I've had to live off their generousity. It's not fair to them and it's a shame to me. If I decide not to go back to college and just leave... that's pretty much just throwing in their face all they've done for me.

*sighs* That's my sob story for the day folks... just thought I'd show ya what's been keeping me so busy lately and how my appointment went. Lot's of stress and lots to deal with.