I've made many friends during my time here on FA. Some well known, and others, just powerful friends in my own eyes. But none of them were more important to me than  big-wolfen. He and I have been together since my first days at FA. During that time, we became one of, if not THE most, strongest friends you have ever seen.

Losing friends is never easy to deal with, especially when it's someone you really came to respect at a time. However, as this journal shows, Wolfen is leaving FA indefinitely. To simply THINK about the fact that I have possibly lost him forever aggrieves me to no end. I have NEVER felt this depressed before, EVER. Oh sure, he says he will be back someday. After all, I said INDEFINITELY, not PERMANENTLY. But at this stage, it doesn't look good. Perhaps it's just the depression making me act pessimistic, but... let's just say I know he's scared, and I'm scared for him too.

In the end though, I have no idea what is going to happen. If we have not seen the last of him, he could still be away for a VERY long time. MONTHS at the least. And if I have absolutely, positively seen him for the very last time ever... Well, that's perhaps what scares me most: Not having the slightest clue what is going to happen, or what I will do.

Yes, I know, I'm pathetic. But I always have been then, haven't I? But at this rate, it looks to me like it's all over...