I dont want to be one of those wet blankets that sits on twitter all week griping about how I couldn't go to AC. But, it seems like I've already accomplished that x.x It's not that I'm resenting everyone that got to go, it's more of I'm so desperate to get out of Utah and go somewhere else, to get away from everything that keeps happening here.

Lately it's been like this. Trying to build a new life and a future for myself. Taking some huge steps forward and swallowing my fear to do so. I'm going to be moving to Texas in late August to finally live with my boyfriend (whom I've dated long-distance for 5 years). As excited as I am for this, I am scared. Really really scared. I kinda just wanna take a small road trip somewhere to just unwind and get my thoughts together before I keep going. It just feels like every support beam I put up falls down after I move on to start putting up the next. Or moreso, someone kicks it down.

But back to the AC thing. Everyone I talk to that usually helps me keep my sanity together, (Thank you guys so much...especially with the events that have happened over this last week) are going to be at AC.....and it just eats me up that I cant go and have buckets of fun with them :c Internet relationships suck worse than a cheap whore.

There has been more going on, but I dont want to leave a fat drama llama in an FA journal. Sketchy creatures, those llamas.