My world literally just collapsed in on itself. I got the apprenticeship I always wanted I'm working 24 seven at the tattoo shop and at my job I feel like I'm finally getting somewhere now. and now my boyfriend who lives and hour south from my home, will be moving to Florida with his friend and his dad so he can go to school for his dream I want him to reach his goals as much as I want to reach mine. but right now I don't know how to deal with this. I just wanted be numbed to the world. And do nothing but read I can't even sleep and I have to be up later at seven. I hate emotion so much I just want to be something animal so I don't have to worry about pain I just have to worry about food and sleep and reproduction. And death. I hurt everywhere. I don't know how I'm going to do with you apprenticeship tomorrow or at work. My head hurts so bad from crying.