...I admit it. I've been doing that with depressing frequency lately, but I honestly don't mind. It's better to be corrected than to keep laboring under false pretenses. I suppose I shouldn't be surprised that that was exactly what I was doing with the second "destroyer" phrase as well as the original.

In my previous, now-deleted journal, I painted a picture of one of my former friends that I'd believed in for years now, one that stated he was abusive, vindictive, and, like most everyone else I knew, that he'd abandoned me in my darkest hours.

What I didn't realize was that he'd been a follower of my deviantArt account for a while and HAD been reaching out to me, sending me links to groups and sites he thought I might be interested in. He never said who he was because he assumed I knew; it was my fault for never bothering to check the account (in my defense, I only just recently started checking out the accounts of my followers). He'd kept his distance because, like I've admitted repeatedly in the past, I was not a very good person in the past...as he himself stated, and I'm sure a few of you who follow me would be inclined to agree, I was "draining" to be a friend with, dismissive and flighty and in constant need of validation from others. He simply didn't want to risk being dragged down again...but, unlike most, HE was actually making an effort.

And I repaid that by calling him a monster.

I doubt anything I post will make amends for that, but I have removed the previous journal and am posting this retraction. I will not post his identity, so don't ask.

I admit when I have wronged someone, and I wronged him badly. I'm sorry.